yes, i found a new look

had it been for the rain that i got my mood for
dressing up my webbie, it's been a while..
this time, it's a more fresher and cleaner feel
everytime one would visit, tadah!

i was feeling a'lil melancholy looking at
raindrops, i don't know what has gotten into
me, but i guess being not able to go out and
that feeling of nothing-to-do somehow add up to
that sentiment, there may be is something in
the drizzle.
but i somehow got pacified in the comfort food..

masarap lalo na pag mainit?
would you not want some?


and speaking of not going out, had some
places visited for quite a few weeks back..
been to quiapo for some accessories tiangge..


and a trip to quiapo wouldn't be complete without
a visit to its infamous church.

i was somehow struck by how quiapo is clean in the morning.


and a toddle to that underpass, will always make you wonder.
was flummox by their music, most of them, muslims and are prayer-ready
on the time i crossed, i guess.


t'was one good trip though.


FOOD CRITIQUE


for some time now, eating in resto/food chain was a fave thing to do.
lemme share some ratings of those that could fill the
gastronomic desire..

1. Fish and Co.
-been with the most amazing peeps i know, whilst eating here.
but most of all, t'was a no-pay for me day, coz my fave
sistah shouldered everything. i called her, our financier that day, hehe..
i love their fish and chips! they have a mouthful of desserts as well.
most of all, you can never trade its ambiance..




2. Halaman (Tanay)
-one of the best lutong-bahay you can taste in tanay. but it may take some time before you can relish your orders. they cook impromptu. not for those who are in-a-hurry.


3. Green Tomatoe
- they have blah pesto, blah fett.. i never expected pasta to taste this bad. i wasn't able to taste anything! i really dont recommend the place. plus they have very poor service. the only consolation i could give them is, their food looks appetizing, but that's just about it- don't be fooled.


4. Mongkok
-mw want chinese, you want chinese, traditional that is? yum! was really full, swak pa sa budget!



eto muna for the food, had an emergency while making this entry. am still a bit sad now.. ill write about it if i have time.

spoiler/teaser and of fashion

yes, things will going to look different for the new season of Grey's Anatomy which will air in pretty soon. if you want some spoilers or teasers read on..

• According to ABC, the newly minted residents will be getting their own interns to mentor. Among the interns: George, repeating his internship after failing the exam (an executive producer told Us that he'd be Meredith's intern), and Lexie Grey, Mere's half-sister.
  
• Cristina takes Meredith on her "honeymoon" after being left at the altar; according to Us, when Cristina returns two weeks later, Burke is mysteriously nowhere to be found. As for Mere and Der, they're at what ABC calls "an emotional impasse."
• The crew doesn't adjust well to taking orders from Callie instead of Bailey. Bailey, meanwhile, has to find a whole new place in the hospital hierarchy after being passed over for chief resident.
• The Chief returns to his position, but this time he's attempting to keep a better work/life balance for the sake of Adele, with whom he has officially reunited.
• Mark tries to rekindle his friendship with Derek; apparently, the guy's lonely after Burke and Addison both leave.

sound like a good story ahead.
haaay, wish it would also air here the same it will air there, haha!



kate moss's magic hands is in work again!
loved her vest designs and that electric pleated dress of her first tie-up with top-shop.
will we also love her fall collection?

tip-off

your eyes will drool.
it's pure manjoyment!
fasten your seatbelt!

he even didn't pass my scoring eyes!


secret hotness huh!


he seemed to improve, thus spell fafa-ble


boy-next-door still..


jt on the move.


the hotness of all!
enough said!

-- it may be the never-ending rainfall or the coldness, ha! =D

wala lang..

it's been raining cats and dogs these days..
but that didn't stop me to go see the metro again.
was alone last thursday at the powerplant,
went there to fix/schedule some important things.
and of course, going to the mall spells s-h-o-p-p-i-n-g!
good thing, zara and mango were on sale, and you bet-
got the most steal purchases on that day! yay to me!
shopping galore is a therapy indeed, hehe..
was alone so i also got the chance to have "moi-time"
which i enjoy once-in-a-while.
after my rockwell splurging, head to the shang.
checked this kewl place to buy music and videos


called tmv (touch music and video) few peeps were there to check the music they want to listen, but hey, it's a unique store where you can buy stuff, and just a touch on that cute monitor, you can hear music! haha!

just one loophole though, some of the most "in the need" albums were not available.
but you can check them out and try to see what's instore.

went home with an accomplished day. i ♥ happy days!

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random guilty pleasure (for now)

- shopping (obvious! well, who doesn't?)
- havaianas (summer-must-have, according to oprah)
- latest hollywood fashion and buzz- fabsugar and superficial
- multiply and friendster shopping online and checking sexy girls (tivoli- gusto ko lang silang tignan eh! bakit ba? haha!) respectively
- jaime oliver
- preview mag (my fashion-bible now)
- su-doku puzzles (alaveeet!)
- tokidoki

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they're going stateside and ready to conquer..
this is really hot! lucky posh!






^
grabeh!



those are for now.
enjoy the rainy days!
xoxo♥

yay!

<----- am really *drooling* on these!
too bad, they're only available in the
u.s.
as at&t is the exclusive network
for the "it" sleeky phone.
it's a hot thing in hollywood now.
hopefully this badboy be available
locally.
yay!
xoxo♥

he is..

hot! hot!
as ever! (can somebody give me a glass of water!? *gasp!*)
yummy too!
lucky angie..

credit:popsugar

material girl's wishlist (wishful)

for the record, it's my birthday.
i'm a gemini.
happy bithday to me.☺

xoxo♥

effin funny

Dear Tech Support,

Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a distinct slowdown in the overall performance, particularly in the flower and jewelry applications, which operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0.

In addition, Husband 1.0 uninstalled many other valuable programs such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5 and then installed undesirable programs such as MLB 5.0, NFL 4.3, PGA 3.0, and NBA 3.6. Conversation 8.0 no longer runs, and Housecleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system.

I've tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, to no avail.

What can I do?

Signed, Desperate


☺

REPLY FROM TECH SUPPORT:

Dear Desperate,

First keep in mind, Boyfriend 5.0 is an Entertainment Package, while Husband 1.0 is an Operating System.

try to enter the command: C:\ITHOUGHTYOULOVEDME' to download Tears 6.2,which should automatically install Guilt 3.0.

If that application works as designed, Husband 1.0 should then automatically run the applications Jewelry 2.0 and Flowers 3.5, BUT remember, overuse of the above application can cause Husband 1.0 to default to Grumpy Silence 2.5, Happy Hour 7.0, or Beer 6.1.

WARNING: Beer 6.1 is a very nasty program that will create Snoring Loudly 2.2.

CAUTION: Whatever you do, DO NOT install Mother-in-law 1.0 or reinstall another Boyfriend program. These are not supported applications and will crash Husband 1.0.

In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have limited memory and cannot learn new applications quickly. You might consider buying additional software to improve memory and performance. I personally recommend Hot Food 3.0 and Lingerie 7.7.

Good Luck,
Tech Support

☺

repost from Ariane

updates lang

i've been itching to write since last week, speaking of last week, right this very day last week, was one hell-of-a-day.. i accompanied my cousin Danica for her interview as incoming freshman in ust.. her interview was scheduled in the afternoon. but since our place is kilometers away from the metro, we ended leaving early.. then guess what, shoot! i dunno if it was just some unlucky day or what, call it jinx day.. we rode a tricycle (yes, we will be commuting..) to get to the fx terminal to crossing.. and right on the bridge was a lunatic and ano, ayun, napag-trip-an lang naman akong suntukin! mantakin mo! oo na, alam ko, maskulada ako, but damn! do i really look like a boxer? hindi naman masyadong malakas ang suntok, dito sa may balakang, pero huh, nakakabigla ding pag-trip-an ng baliw! ( i know jen, if you're reading this, you probably is already dieing of laughter, kilala kitah!). so ayun, dumating din kami sa terminal, sa kabila ng pagkabigla s pangyayari.. mejo masakit, pero ok lang, hindi naman ako napuruhan eh.. balikan ko kaya sya? pero eto wait, meron pa, ang gagong driver, ni wala man lang ginawa, parang nangingisi p sya at sinuntok ako, demmit!
ayun, pagdating din the terminal, walang fx!
matagal kaming naghintay.. nung malapit ng mag-isang oras, i decided to check sa other paradahan.. naku, wala ding fx n dumarating.. then i decided, we might be late for my cousin's interview, so we need to ride the jeepney.. napilitan talga akong mag-decide.. mind you, it was a really humid day! it fell somewhere from 36-37 degrees Centigrade (whoa, what was that, a hot oven or something?) top this, tanay to crossing is apparently 36kilometers away.. so with my calculation plus plus the traffic, masuwerte n kaming makarating sa crossing ng isang oras at kalahati, o db ang suwerte ng start ng luwas namin? before we knew it, puwede mo n kaming gawing kalamay-hati! (alam mo b iyon? ung malagkit n pinapalaman, ah! coco jam sa english..) ayun, ang lagkit lagkit n naming dalawa.. puwede ng gawing preno ng sasakyan, grabeh!thanks to my lotion after bathing, ang sarap makipag-kaskasan ng balat.. kung makakapagsalita lang siguro ang hanky ko, malamang sumigaw n sya ng "parang-awa mo na", good thing, it was a red one, hindi obvious n madumi at nangigigtata. we rode a cab getting to ust, hanep ang driver, hataw magmaneho, dun na pa naman kami kumakain ng lunch, kasi nag-take-out n kami ni dang ng lunch, wala n kasing time.. hindi din kami halos nakakakain, we feel like puking sa bilis nya.. ang sarap db? isipin ko n lang kunwari nalasing ako kaya gagawin ko un.. hay buhay!
after the interview, ang tanging consolation ko, is mag mall, hay! ang sarap ang lamig! i bought my baby gingersnaps uli and a new shirt for me and her dad. so the coming sunday, lahat kami naka-bago for the mass, hehehe. oh db.. totyal!


bakit kamo kami naka-bago (new shirts on) ng sunday? t'was a special day dahil nagpakain kami ng mga bata (less-fortunate) sa mount carmel church. it's me and my hubby's way of thanking God for all the blessing He gave us. He never really left us, though problem and serious concerns are still on our mind, it still is better to give.. seeing the smiles on their faces was such a knock-out happiness.
later that evening, the Maranans celebrated ranton's bday at the fun ranch.. it really was a good place to find a good resto and at the same time good amusement place for the children. if you happen to schedule your family to go to fun ranch, eat at the big read barn.esp. if you're an ice cream lover, am sure you're gonna love their summer treats of ice cream!<--banana split, isn't it tempting?wallow in!



ang saya-saya ko! i have two (2) havaianas this april.. hope this will again be the start of my collection. had my 1st havaianas in 2005, but sadly, hindi n sya nadagdagan, until now. pero nasira muna ang 1st flip flops ko before i got my latest pairs..and yes,go on, you can envy me! hahahaha!

xoxo.

can i just..

ask, where have all my fave bloggers gone?

it's been a while and they're still on hiatus..

my fave bloggers
ariane-the one whose blessed with that slim body. the one who's torn between love and career.

tins-nakapag-eb n kami, hahaha! kiddin, she's a personal friend, were officemates then and an active bloggger nung may lovelife p sya, hope meron na uli ahihihihi..

and tiepee- her humor will never let u pass, grabeh, ang galing magsulat. she closed her blog, but hope she change her mind.
cant get enough of their talent in writing. they are sweethearts of the blogging world. i just missed them soooo much.

i'm still running through thoughts and genuises of faye, ala, bianca, saab and katie.

but somehow am wanting 'em all back.



be excited!

i've been browsing way too much my time before.. no sweat, i'm raving of products online, esp.
the adorable baubles bangles. two bangles already in my possession, and i'm still counting.

screech

damn. this online banking doesnt seem to work! i cliked that fund transfer section then a pop-up said, i don't have fund to transfer, duh! will i opt that portion if it doesnt display or i didn't know i still have money in my account! tsk.tsk.poor system. what's worse is, they have this phonebanking..and guess what, andaming chechebureche! kesyo may kailangan pang phone identification # chuva!hay naku! waste of time. i know, maybe they're just being cautious of hackers..but the hell-waste of time. hmpf!

be sad

my first evah-fave havaianas flip died..consider it lifeless, becoz i can't use it anymore, thongs were cut because of over-usage, ahuhuhuhu..total abuse my havie cried!

rant some more

ang lakas ng videoke s kapitbahay namin.. sana lang tama and naiintidihan ang lyrics most esp sana ok pakinggan, kaso ewan, ayaw ko ng magsalita.. tsk.tsk. hindi kasi sila busy eh..

(i hold on tu yor badi and pil its mub yu make.. kos i am olweys by yor sayd!.. wer heyding por samtheng..kos m yor lady aynd yu ar my meyn!.. ay wanan doo ol i keyn!wid the power ob..she then paused..hindi n kaya, hahahaha!)

ayos!

show what makes me smile and makes my day!

<----- need i say more?

blow by blow papampam

one should call her actions- stupidity at its best? actually i pity her. her former assistant was right, nobody could save her from herself, except herself alone. of course, everybody was shocked at the sight of brit, half bald this time, but yeah she really went all the way.

give her anything that makes her happy, poor britney.

crossing threshold

my now-clear mind- zoomed through many passages of
life.. things of what could have been, things to achieve
and now is the best time to think of that blast from the past, err. i often think of educating myself, and so stuck fast to opening the webbie of this university im so wanting to be-in over the years.. as i browsed and perused, it occurred that the admission to graduate studies has a big load of requirements for me, not that i was dumb-headed in my civil engineering years. but i guess encompassing the competition with the male specie in my college was really hard-hitting.. yes, i know i need not excuse myself for not studying in paramount altitude that time. but fine, i was really lazy in college (lame). now, i’m learning. come to think of it.. i was on the top50 of my graduating class. yes, mind you, top40something. Mapua (in my days) is an undemanding (opposed) college by the way, if you know what I mean..

now, my heart is yearning for education. i want to learn things again. go back to school. or maybe im just like this because i’m beginning to recognize the need for it. or i was just bored. but who can be bored with such dealings everyday? i know, in every person’s heart is a need, a want,a desire a craving, for now this is it..
well, c’est la vie, will never be loss of needs and wants.
xoxo.

random things on hearts day

before anything else, happy valentines to the young, the old, the bald, and those who fall in between..

now, let me start the things..

♥ to receive a flower today is such a wonderful feeling!

♥ in a busy world like this, people still find time to interact and be with their loved-ones on this mushy day.

♥ i can't help but envy those who are with their partners today

♥ it's been a while that i've looking and browsing at gorgeous women on the internet (thanks to my unlimited wireless connection, ahhhhhh, the power of tech..)

♥ been wanting to buy that new album of gwen--- all the girls in the hauz!-wind it up!

♥ i dunno what's with them, but i still giggle seeing f4 in mtv-china, grabeh, they're still as hot as ever!

♥ it's in the air--hearing all that mushy songs on the radio

♥ been really wanting to start an online business

♥ want to go somewhere for a get-away, will have a me-time

♥ its always is nice to catch up with friends esp. those who are practicing their motherhood and having it as their career

♥ my baby's really bossy!

♥ my baby always smells gooooooooood! really goooooooooooooood!

♥ im glad that my bestie is finding a way to woooooooooo me, hehehe..

♥ i want to hear my hubby's voice

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bossyliciousness

Aye Yo... You don't have to love me..... you don't even have to like me...... but you will respect me........ you know why cause Im a boss Uh uh... watch the beat go... Uh uh... watch the beat go... Uh uh... watch the beat go... Uh uh... watch that beat go...
I'm bossy I'm the first girl to scream on a track I switched up the beat of the drum
That's right i brought all the boys to the yard
And that's right, i'm the one that's tattooed on his arm
I'm bossy
I'm the chick y'all love to hate
I'm the chick that's raised the stakes
I told young stunna he should switch debate
I'm back with an 808
cause i'm bossy
Ooh lemme slow it down so ya can catch the flow
Screw it up make it go extra slow
Real girls get down on the flo (on the flo get down, on the flo)
Ooh i gave you a taste you want some more
Touch down lemme do it up like a pro I ride the beat like a bicycle,
I'm icy cold Ooh from the 6-4 hoppers up in crenshaw
The money makin playas up in harlem
Don't want no problems
We gon keep it pumpin while the 808 is jumpin Diamonds on my neck, di-diamonds on my grill Diamonds on my neck, di-diamonds on my grill
I'm bossy I'm the first girl to scream on a track
I switched up the beat of the drum That's right i brought all the boys to the yard And that's right, i'm the one that's tattooed on his arm I'm bossy I'm the chick y'all love to hate I'm the chick that's raised the stakes I told john sterling he should switch to BAPE I'm back with an 808 cause i'm bossy Ooh (i bet i bet i bet) i bet cha neva heard it like this before My baby be closin'them phantom doors Got the bar poppin this that you can't afford (can't afford) Ooh i'm drinkin blastin the crowds it's all smokin All the while i'm all open Me and my girls we stay fly and we love to stay high Ooh from the 6-4 hoppers up in crenshaw To the money makin playas up in harlem Don't want no problems We gon keep it pumpin while the 808 is jumpin Diamonds on my neck, di-diamonds on my grill Diamonds on my neck, di-diamonds on my grill I'm bossy I'm the first girl to scream on a track I switched up the beat of the drum That's right i brought all the boys to the yard And that's right i'm the one that's tattooed on his arm I'm bossy I'm the b!tch ya'll love to hate I'm the chick that's raised the stakes I told young stunna he should switch to BAPE I'm back with an 808 cause i'm bossy [Too $hort] It's bout time that she get with me Can't stop starin, she's fine and she's pretty Damn girl, don't hurt em don't bite back, you gon work em Put your mack down, i know your background Whatchu want girl, you gettin mad now That's how you do it, huh? Well i'm the coolest one In fact, bitches in the back bring em to the front, bitch! Tell that man you's a boss bitch Make some noise, raise your hand if you's a boss bitch I don't think he understand you's a boss bitch Get some help if you can cause he lost it Ain't no refunds, she spent the cash mayne In your benz with her friends in the fast lane Flossin, you say "how much it cost me?" About a million dollars playa, she's bossy [Kelis] I'm bossy I'm the first girl to scream on a track I switched up the beat of the drum That's right i brought all the boys to the yard And that's right i'm the one that's tattooed on his arm I'm bossy I'm the b!tch y'all love to hate I'm the chick that's raised the stakes I told john sterling he should switch to BAPE I'm back with an 808 cause i'm bossy Uh uh... watch the beat go... Uh uh... watch the beat go... Uh uh... watch the beat go... Uh uh... watch the beat go... Uh uh... watch the beat go... Uh uh... watch the beat go... Uh uh... watch the beat go... Uh uh... watch the beat go... Uh uh...

while on hiatus

read this.. and answer if you love to..

1. What does your Name mean?
Edesther. Obvious ba?
Its my mom and dad’s name-combined, now guess what their names are..

2. What's your current problem?
I really need a yaya.

3. What's your middle name?
dalaga pa- Ignacio, now- Adia

4. What is your current relationship status?
very married and very mommy.

5.Honestly, does your crush like you back?
if he will see me, he will realy like me, hahahaha!
Dream on! I fancy, kim rae-won.


6. What is your current mood?excited!

7. What do you love most?
music, books and tv

8. What makes you happy?
my hubby and sweety baby- they never cease to put a smile on my face.

9. Are you musically inclined?
Yes.

10. If you could go back in time, and change something, what would it be and why?
I will be more patient.. but I don’t regret anything.

11. If you had to be an animal for one day, what would you be?
a Labrador perhaps.

12. Ever have a near death experience?
yep, on our way to baguio, aug. 2004 I think

13. Name something you do a lot?
take care of my baby

14. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
hmmm, I don’t have any, no lss..

15. Who did you copy and paste this from?
Faye’s blog

16. Name someone with the same b-day as you.
Carl Barât, English singer and guitarist (The Libertines and Dirty Pretty Things)

18. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
ah, yes, but not as an adult, when I was in gradeschool I guess..

20. What's the first thing you notice about the OPPOSITE sex?
height and eyes.

25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?yes!
26. Do you have braces?I used to.

27. Are you comfortable with your weight?
nah! I’m way my pre-natal mass. It’s included on my resolution for this year.

28. Do you speak any other languages?
English and Tagalog lang.


29. What's your favorite smell?
clinique happy.

30. who do you think will re-post this?
I absolutely have no idea.

dug-dug

just before starting this entry, i had a hard time fixing my mind on what title would be appropriate until my heart said, "dug dog, dug-dug" so finally, i had my title.
why was i nervous to write?
its been a while, i had an action-packed life now, taking good care of my baby is no walk in the park.. but it makes sense and for the record, its all worth my effort, my time and everything i have now, i have so much joy having my baby, as cliche it may sound, but i am indeed very, very happy! sometimes i feel, she's my protagonist in my so-called life.
speaking of being a busy lass now, its my first Christmas being in my 30s.. and its the first Christmas that i wasnt able to buy gifts for relatives and friends, not a singla family member was able to receive someting from me, damn, was i that bad? well, as i said, its not taht easy..

well, just to take the edge off.. i want to reward myself by sharing my wishlist for 2007, or maybe should i say, resolutions?

~ a closer realtionship with God

~ i wish to have a new cellphone (hello, fafa!) sony erricson p900i would definitely be good for me.

~ i wish to have that starbucks planner (jovy, please help..)

~ i could get my baby her passport

~ be back on my pregnancy pre-weight (damn this appetite), to fit those old shirts and jeans again ( i wonder why this booty has gotten me sooo big.. or maybe its the pelvic)

~ new ipod

~ a little more quality time for myself ( i really should get a reliable yaya)

~ finish reading, the devil wears prada

~ read more books

~ be with my hubby mid 2007 or maybe on the 4th quarter

~ my baby's coompletely free from her allergies

~ be able to update my blog even once a month

~ trip to boracay (again?) or maybe palawan with loved ones of course

~ hmmmmm.. ill think of some more, ill be back in a while..

an open letter for someone dear

proximity wise, yes, i expect something from you.
or maybe, i just thought im also someone dear to you.
someone, you'll always rememebr when events happen to my life, and important happenings came through.
i don't know, but i guess i have my fair share of disappointments in you. but that was a long time ago.
i didn't know- that when this age comes, you would forget to somehow greet me or be happy for me. you see, something important and happy happenned to me and i want you to be a part of it!

i don't know if you'll know, its you, at least now you have a hint..
maybe time or challenges drifted us apart and so i thought.. sigh
inside me, i will always long to see you or even hear from you, and dream you would sometime pay me a visit.

i just want you to know, i'm sad, you dont remember, sadder- you don't even bother..

demeanor

Just when you’re about to sleep (turned-off the lights), thoughts and lots of thoughts sprinted through your wits, you somehow want to sleep but can’t get into relaxing your mind because of so many things pumpin’ your head, finally, you decide to write and then, blop! All that you’ve been thinking and wanting to write, seemed to vanish in thin air, whoa! Right timing huh?

Let me pull together what I could remember from al those thoughts- ahhhh.. it just started into realizing how a smile can make a difference, when you see your not so privileged neighbor modeled a humongous smile early one morning, you can’t help but smile as well, well, what made him smile kaya? Maybe he got his breakfast early as he used to.. well, it’s none of my business n din.

And then, lots of realization began to decant..

At that instant, I realized, I feel bored, I really want to do something different from the last 2months ive been staying here, well, i've been waiting to make my big splash to motherhood (being soo busy nesting..). I read almost all of the books I bagged in order not to feel how im feeling now, I browsed even all the right magazines I have here, so what now?
Well, maybe I really can’t wait to deliver my very first baby, want her to be on board with her bootylicious momma! I guess, this is just the feeling of wanting to see my baby! Oh! I really want to see her na, as in! (siguro, she also wants to see her mommy n din! Her daddy n din!) I usually have my Braxton-hicks every so often, I don’t know if I just have this high resistance to pain, but it’s not yet time, but I really hope I’m really, really nearing it. I don’t want to be in the hospital only to realize that i just had false labor, I want to be sure of it, and so I really need some signs. I read lots about going through labor, but maybe, it’s a different pain before I would kick my booty to go to the hospital.

Another thing I came to realize, province attitude didn’t change much- my titas are still the same bunch of nervous freaks, and that includes my mother. One day, you tell them, you’re not feeling well, because the baby keeps on kicking, take a look at their faces, it only means one thing, “ano, pupunta na ba tayo sa hospital?” the worried looks in their faces, hay naku! It’s fine and even good to know that they’re so concerned pero ung mauna pa silang nerbyosin s akin, ewan ko lang ha, that much of minding really doesn’t help me at all, not at all. So I end up, keeping feelings/things to myself, I guess ill say what I feel, if it really is the right time. I don’t like those stares of questioning, I soo don’t like it. It feels like, I need to explain how I feel every now and then, like every feeling has an explanation, and every dream is controllable, like I had this bad dream before and I was asked why I dreamed of that, hello! As if I can control dreams!

Oftentimes I also asked why do people complain about other people (no exemption to that...), why are we not satisfied with what we have.. but somehow in the process.. I myself somehow was able to be contended.. but maybe, people are not really satisfied.. they tell themselves, if only I have this, then I’ll be happier.. and when they reach that place.. I want more, they say. Sigh.. human nature..

I know i'm nearing my high time and i'm just so excited and that i can't really hide it (yeah, just like the song..) so much so, now.. i need to relax.

title-less.. nevermind.

ive been thinking maybe im being part cloudy..
im a little blue but disappointed in so many ways.
i should not be,
not in this situation.. it could
affect, not just me but my very precious and most adored baby
(though haven't seen her just yet),
but i really hope it wont affect much-that's the reason why i need to write
( i guess at first, hmmm).


i never find is amusing to have a conversation with a moron/fool,
(i don't have a luxutious time to spare) well who does?
a proverb once told:
the woman folly is loud;she is undisciplined and without knowledge.
it indeed is..


what's so disappointing is along with those inevitable crossings
with the fool,
the people who you thought would somehow
feel embarass of how someone reacted never even gave you support..
is it only bec they don't know how to react?
or they're just afraid of what could happen?
why can't they correct? is it because the other person
doesn't take correction the way correction should be taken?
to avoid fights, maybe is the reason why they
just kept quiet?
well, i dont buy that..
i just cannot accept that!
these kind of people will just abuse those around them and they
will have this pride in themselves that
they can be kings in their own attitude bearing.
writing this is realy getting into my nerves,
i still can feel it.so i better stop and just think
happy thoughts, and maybe write happy topic..


**i wish i could have an intelligent conversation with someone everyday, kahit 5mins lang..