drama, drama, drama

yes, drama... and lotza drama.
it occurs in our daily being, not being in the mood to go to the city, then make up for pretext to get what you really wanted.

what's wrong with gettin' what you want?

it may only be wrong if you're giving some despondency to your loved-ones or to some.
or maybe you abandon the things you ought to do, manage to be an enhanced individual.
a profound persona as time goes by and become wiser, the longer you stay in this life.
and what happens to all sorts of lesson you learned while having the same heartache other people gave you?
it may really seem incomprehensible, but at times life sometimes really is unfair.

i really don't know why i'm in the mood to write sad thoughts.. a drama, you may call, but i ain't poignant. i'm not even sad, i guess i just want to write these...
ow! i can be an actress, or maybe someone who can reinvent fiction.

Scatterbrained me

i dunno..
really don't understand at all..
eversince been 2x to the hospital (i rather not disclose the details what has transpired), i have been sooo forgetful

i don't remember the last email addie i put in this group i joined, kaasar and the worse is sometimes i forget the word am just about to type.. hmmmpfff!

am annoyed not to mention agitated with this so-not-me behavior.. i knew mahself as one who don't easily forget.

oh, well, maybe the cliche's true, anaesthesia (i hope i spelled it right) works but they it leaves a bad effect of being scatterbrained, waaaaahhhh!

is there any way, this wont blow so fast on me? any tips or suggestions? do i need to take some vitamins so my brain would work the same as it was before?

or am i just gettin' older?

a memorable day..

Got the pix from a friend's webshot
and yes... i tied the knot.... sowee guys... (har,har, har)




The Bride and the Groom

my three's from Teng!

* Three names i go by:
1. Edez
2. Edes
3. Zede

*Three screen names i had
1. edezther
2. sede_nanaram
3. edes

*Three physical thungs i like bout myself
1. eyes
2.butt (har!har!, asset!)
3.blunt

*Three physical things i don't like bout myself
1.hot-tempered
2.impatient
3.small sized feet

*Three parts of my heritage
1.espanola
2.chinese
3.filipino

*Three things that scare me
1.hell
2.being along
3.separation

*Three of my everyday essential
1. lip balm
2.tissue
3.bible

*Three of fave musical artists
1.beethoven (for now..)
2. MOZART (for now again...hehehe..)
3.Usher

*Three of my fave songs
1. the prayer (eversince i got married)
2. ill make love to u (boys2men)
3. beautiful people (mariah carey)

*Three things i want in a relationship
1. loyalty & faithfulness (do they have the sam meaning?)
2.honesty
3.prayer

*Three lies and truths
(hmmm... thse kept me thinking)

1.Vatican is a sacred city
2.hell is here
3.there's reincarnation

1.God is omni-potent
2.opportunity knocks twice
3.we all need life's lesson

*Three physical things about the opposite sex that attracts me
1. chest/torso
2.eyes
3.height & teeth

*Three of my fave hobbies
1.chatting
2.reading
3.cleaning

*Three things i want to do really badly now
1.take a vacae
2.watch tv the whole day
2.travel

*Three carrers i considered
1.flight attendant (would u believe, a technical person like me?)
2.doctor (i think every child though bout taking that)
3.Engineer

*Three places for my vacae
1.HK (want to see the new built disneyland!)
2.Bora!
3.tokyo

*Three kids name i like
1.ethan
2.james
3.eirene

*Three things i want to do before i die
1. served my purpose-spread God's good news
2. have children and grandchildren
3. be prosperous

*Three ways that am stereotypically am a boi!
1.am an engineer
2.i manage property
3. i always wear pants


***cant finish everything tins..but will be back
*mwuah*

The New Life...

it's been a while really..
i missed writing..but now that i'm in front and had the chance..
i can't seem to think what to write..


Should i be writing bout my busy life now?
or should i be talking bout my career?
how bout the last movie i watched?


*MARRIED LIFE*

I tell you, it really is not easy.. but once you're in..you'll definitely enjoy it.. i enjoy every minuteam with my hubby...

the chores..I do the laundry-- feels like i do almost 200% of what iusually do when i was a maiden (hahahaha!a maiden..)I also clean the room, you know it really is automatic..you don't know what force drives you to do the thingsyou need to do.. am such a lazy lass... but if could only see menow... i'm a transformed Edez!I take good care of what he needs to wear in the office, i meaneverything.. and i should say, i looove doing it, and what makesit more exciting? It's that, he a-p-p-r-e-c-i-a-t-e-s it, heappreciates me... and it feels good!i think, im more in love with him now... (giggles!)


*WORK, WORK, WORK*

I'm assigned to another project now... onesaid, that'll be a good opportunity for me (did i got that spelled right?)hope it would.. and i just hope i could contributein a biggie way. thanks for the favor, Mr. President.


*MONEY*

Ow! I must say, we really need to save, the last project was not that good..but what's important is the Lesson we were both able to learn..and we really just hope that there will be more projects to come.. otherwise wewill go abroad (i think everybody's thinkin' that way now, esp. if you look@ our economy)


*NOW YOU ASK ME*

am i on the way?dunno, really..me & my hubby checked last night...just 3 drops of it.. then a single line came..after a minute...another line... but not as BOLD as the first one..i really don't know what to think, or what to feel..but am 4days delayed... Haaay, sana!


*FRIENDS, FRIENDS*

I sooo missed them...
These were the last news..

my roomates
* i think Kate's already involved..
* Kath's pretty busy with her review (wish her luck)
* Jaq's happy with her bf and career
* Maibz busy with her Job and MA

my CEMEX Friends
* Ron just had his birthday and is hopeful to find Ms. Right
* Emz already has her lovelife
* Tins... i hope she's happy, but i guess she's busy with her career..
* Tessa i also hope she's happy, i know she's busy preparing for her birthday concert (Yadah!)
Barkada
* Jen's totally in loove with her guy
* Maan's still inlove with Xander (I think)
* Mah sister (Eseng) is already with her husband in dubai, and they're so happy! with Matthew their son
* Cyn's happy with Lord
* Alma's busy saving so she could get home this dec.

Current Officemates
* Joan's pregnant now
* Tin's gaining weight
* Aaron's gonna marry Joan
* Maie's not soo happy with her bf's set-up
* Milo left the company
* etc... etc...

Que Sera Sera..

yes whatever will be will be...
the future's not ours to see, que sera sera...a cliche'

been through a lot!
sometimes life's full of SHIT!
and i mean shit!
i can be ur very deary biatch.. and i can be the worst ever biatch u can find...
but there's also this lousy stupid f_cking bitch!

does taking the plunge means taking the risk?
it just doesnt end there... and what the f_ck... do people do with their lives?


i know what is mine.. and i know how to get it...but i am always willing to set it free..if it likes to..
but no matter how much i wanted to let go.. the pain seems to be so visible..so transparent...ahhh! the agony of it..
if only i can change the world...

i never thought i can go this far?

is this really me, i am seeing in themirror?
a lot has changed...

there's nothing new with me.. the same thing could be expected of me..
but something in me has changed...i went through maturity...and its way beyond ur imagination...carrying through it was "wow!"

i may be s gurl like in ur telenovelas but c'est la vie!
that's the way life goes...
sometimes u move, sometimes you're stagnant...sometimes you're paranois and sometimes you're a pain in the *ss!


i dont anymore know what to say...
i will be clearer later...
sorry for keepin u thinkin'
(i may assume)

Official........................

Yes, i could announce it (Tins, i know matagal mo na to hinihintay..)
I'm Engaged.
...

Some Dilemnas

2. There are lots of things to do...

3. and the big day is this May!

4. Don't want Wedding booo booos...

5. still have many questions..


looks like i need help.. actually i have lots of things to say..
lots of questions to ask.. but this is all i can write for now..
i actually dunno how to start...hmmmmm....
nakaka-kaba...

am i really ready for this?

On a Night Like this..........

On a Sabado night, when no one is available to accompany me on a gimik....
No one's available, from my room-mates, to my officemates, to other friends.. down to my boyfriend...
B-O-R-I-N-G! ayt?

Not so fast... lets, rewind....

I was really bored last Saturday.. Ojie's not available for he has his own gimik.. my other friends even has their own gimiks... then i finally decided to blog... i went here in an internet cafe.. and waited for the long line to use the PC.. then i decided, why not call my other friends from CEMEX?
That would be nice, ayt? So i called Tins and Tessa... and they told me, they're @ Rockwell, and
up i went, as fast as i could.
So later that night, i produced my own gimik! Hay sa wakas!
We met sa rockwell, then went to G4 to watch Oceans12... oh! how i loooooved
BRAT PITT!
I actually became Mrs. Pitt! hahahaha! dream on!

'Bout the movie... it's a bit boring.. but they are right... Catherine Zeta Jones was
sooo Drop Dead Gorgeous!

I was really happy to see Tessa and Tins.. i finally somehow caught up with how they have been doing.


Things Learned:

1. "We barely Fight" Thanks to Leng.. earlier that night..Tins and Leng met at Rockwell, had i known it.. siguro i met her too... Tins asked Leng, "Ano naman ang napag-aawayan nyo ni Pao?" Leng anwered, "We rarely fight eh.." That's the answer.. how we wish we could answer that when somebody asks us, di ba? so matured.. nakakatuwa.
(an SATC Conversation happens from Rockwell going to G4, hahaha!)

2. "What do you get from fighting?" Tessa asked.. Tins answered.." yung sarap ng lambing", Tin's right, but Tessa has a point... hindi sya maganda.. we should learn to control our emotions.. lalo na if you have my age... huhuhu.. tanda na kasi, isip bata pa, hahaha!

I learned things from really young people.. i'm so happy to know that they think, act and feel so matured.. i adore them.. i even envy the confidence they have.. i wish i could be like them...

Welcome 2005 (My Thanksgiving and thoughts)

Oh, yeah! another year had passed... time really flies so fast..
little did i know that Tins changed her webby (again), same thing with
Ariane..
What happenned?
I'm so lost with the blogging world..
Two months had passed since i was not able to update.. but i
missed alot, feels like, i missed a year or so..

So now, it's another year. And i pray that this year would be
the most promising year that i would have.. may it be in my career,
family life.. lovelife, social life and many others.. i expect alot and i mean
a lot to come my way... oh, well, not just for me, but to those i love and
treasure.. to all the friends i have.. to those i cherish and those who truly cares..
my best wishes and prayers!

I'm really being positive with what will happen to my life..
for the past 4 years of me, i think i have been so pessimistic.. i have never
really believed that good things could actually happen to me.. but they did!
What really struck me most was what happenned to my career.. t'was a bliss!

Oh, lets go with my love life.. i still don't trust him that well. We still fight once in a while..
but i guess he's really being patient with my attitude (Tins, thanks for the advise!)
.. and me being patient with
my waiting.. waiting for him to marry me, hahahaha!
But i have to tell this i still have this fear of losing him.. ow! i guess everybody has that, ayt?
I hold on to prayers. I guess he's not bad after all.. oh! would i question a person who stayed
with me for 8 YEARS? Yes, you heard me right... we're on our eight(th) Year now.... hmmm what can i say... tagal na noh? sana naman.... basta!

Let's go to my family-- all i pray is that God will give my parents- Longer life.. good health..
and of course the time of their lives to worship Him and Praise Him.

With my Social life... i guess i have to work a little more on that... hehehe...

With friends! I have gained a lot, from Blogspot, to my new job and to different walks of life... I'm to thankful to be surrounded by these people.

To God, i'm so thankful for all the blessings! For the things learned in the past.. for the
sad memories.. the ache, hatred because they made me a better person, a matured one. He is continuing to MOLD me, and i'm so grateful for that.

A very wondeful year to all of us! Best of LUCK!

God bless.