its not our MIS

it's the damn...fu@#ng.. sh*t internet service provider........ when i get home in Tanay, that'll be the only time i can read blogs... i cant even read mine... grrrr... its gettin' into my nerves...... i can't do anything about it....

grrrrrrrrrrrrr

i think i got busted! dunno if our MIS put a firewall to blogspot. how now can i read my friends blogs? grrrrrrrrrr.... and now i am so eager and can't wait to read how they are doing... stupid... stupid....
maybe i am just wasting my time to blog... but i have the need, the feel to read, to write what's going on......grrrr....... ill talk to him, maybe he can allow me to read and post blogs... im sure i can post but i want to read too! this is awful and unpleasant, sad too.......

another side of depression

"It has been a year of career bliss."

I have learned to value Maturity.

"I believe it is dedication to common purposes, a willingness to grow and learn, faith and courage in difficult situations and adaptability.

Depression has its good side too..

It taught me to know myself well..

"It implies focused attention and hard work. I must admit that the past year has molded and matured me. Life go through many phases. Ironically, it is often the most difficult situations that serve to strengthen a person's ability (my ability). In my case, my being in Engineering School and all the quirks that go with it has moved me from a Carefree person to a deeper, fuller commited individual. I am looking forward to a year ahead, a fruitful one.

winning a contest

Have i mentioned i won an MTV Asia Awards 2004 Contest?
Yes, I did! last Holy Week when i got home i was surprised to see a Big Envelope my Tatay gave me. He said, "I paid 30 bucks just to get that, u have to pay me.." hehe.. And when i opened it... i saw 2 Black Shirts w/ a Lovely Pink Print of the MTV Asia Awards 2004-- w/ a heart... i was Happy. i just remembered i only joined the contest on-line. i joined the Britney Spears Toyota Vios Contest and thought maybe i could win a Vios... and look... i have 2 shirts, didn't know MTV is Real...

Now, ill try to join this contest... for MAKSIM... cross my finger... want to see his concert... like the..hmmm.. what do u call that... The...BumbleBee....*wink*wink*

w/ a celebrity

me & donita 

:)



startsruck? nah... she visited our CEO (her friend) my Acquintance (dream on, hehe..) She had her pictorials for One of the properties the Company sells, Chataue Elysee that is... she has been a friend of our boss that's why she picked Donita to be the Model of the said property. Ssshhh.. don't tell anyone 'bout this, but i was fresh from my chicken pox then... when i had this picture w/ her... hope she wont get the virus... but im pretty sure she didn't becoz im already really safe then... becoz im well, hey, im well! i know she's havin' a baby... but im really well then (kulit) anyways she was really kind to have pix with us... im also glad that one of my officemate had some extra fim for me and her... she's really kind. (am i talking jologs now?) LOL!

im a perfect girlfriend, really?

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huh?

before publishing this.. i was able to write my blogs for this day, and what a heck! it was not posted or published... grrrrrrrrrr.....
going back, need to track what i just had wrote... is it our server? it sucks!
anyhow....
t'was a splendid week! though i just spent the long vacation @ home, it just went fine.. didn't go for some vacation becoz my friends were preoccupied with some business, no one's available.. and some wants to just spend it @ home (but that's just fine..) had slept during the day and watched TV till the wee hours, DVD Marathon..
i missed going out during this times.. the last time i went out of town was like 2 years ago. and now, i just kinda remember the first time i was allowed to go out (u know the life in province..) my Olangapo get-away! in Crown Pick Hotel.. i had a great deal of time there.................... spending it @ home was also nice, i had a some rest, enough sleep... exactly what i needed..
but before the long vacation has ended..we went to the mall, just this sunday.. with mah cousins, nephew and sis! Sis went to dermclinic, had a facial. while waiting we went to the arcade, my nephew had a good time there.. of course i let him play.. but i pay for the tokens.. well it's nice at least, he was happy..
and now, im back to the real world.... again.... in front of my PC.. *sigh*
( I just hope this blog would be posted.. cross my fingers)

excited!

just when i thought.. i need to blog.. ideas and things to say poured this morning.. but what can i do, im in the jeepney (on my way to the office). as i passed my school in college can't help but notice an advertisement written " NURSING COURSE STARTS... blah.. blah..", so i asked myself, "is mapua still the same as it was before?" and then i saw this car came out of the campus' gate, ahhh.. students now have their cars. i still remember earlier students told us that mapua are for those kids who has the brains, the scholarship... now i wonder.. it isnt the same anymore. during my days.. we're kinda cool, though i have seen peeps with cars, been with friends who has one.. but i say they're legitimately "BRIGHT" and so how are they now, after lasalle bought it. i have never seen my campus (intramuros) for quite a while.. my cousin graduated in the same school just last january.. haven't chat with him.. ain't it funny when things become so absurd?
last friday night i went out for some movie with my girlfriends.. and yes we watched PASSION OF THE CHRIST which i by the way highly recommend.. halfway through the movie @ my back i heard sniffs.. ( i was not @ that time in the mood for crying and i don't cry @ movies @ all) my girlfriends cried.. huhuhu.. i almost wanted to laugh at them when suddenly this scene came.. When Jesus first fell down on his knees (while carrying His Cross) and Mary remembered that same thing happenned to Him while he was still young....................... and really i can't believe my tears fell down.. Big Ouch.. it really struck my heart (big time).... and i just remembered i cried twice in that movie. some people see it as a violent movie, some drama... but u see.. someone has to really get into the deep meaning of it, Jesus Payed a high price for us, what He went through is nothing we can just ignore.. its a big cut in my heart.. (sigh) He really is the Son of God! After meditating... i realized, i have to rejoice! for He has Risen! yes He died, but he rose again! and we are not slaves anymore! We are saved! we are co-heirs with Christ! a wonderful feeling inside me. Awesome God!
I've been reading The Purpose driven life for sometime now.. and with my life to have this meaning.. i really thank God for loving and creating me. though at different times i have my flaws.. speaks harshly to some people.. not to mention i backslide from him. i am so sorry.. i really want to get back.. (God help me..)

a blog

haven't read anythin' from my friends' blogs.. no news since last week. (if u can only see my face)
its april fools day... how do one make it a fools day? doing something funny.. making fun of other people? doing something stupid? do we really need to be concious of this date? i just wonder.. this morning, i heard this lady said, "its april's fools day!" (she really souns excited.. ho-hum), in my self i said, "so?"
not really in the mood to write now, i just have an urge to do this... its been a long time.
so i wrote something yesterday, bout mah cousin who will not marry his long time gf (pregnant now)... i left a hanging question.. its been a puzzle last weekend, i saw them very sweet, and i can see in my cousin's eyes that he really loves his gf, but what the reason? fussy? he told us he's not yet ready to get married (from the first time i learned he's going to marry because he got his gf pregnant, i asked, so why marry? is it really the answer to the problem?) a lot of underlying questions... he told us his side and we understood... its a lifetime commitment... but realizing not to marry the girl, does that mean he doesn't love the girl anymore? or may be there a still lots to settle.. of course in this society.. the blame would be on my cousin, people will ask, why did u do that, and not able to face the consequences? they should have been more responsible, right? my cousin has his side of the story, and im sure the girl has hers too..
inside me, i pity the girl, she's bearing a child, with no assurance of a father, will not even carry his/her father's Name. but i know my cousin is matured, i believed his reasons.. the girl should have second thought why cousin made that decision.. he has points.. he still have dreams and ambitions.. the girl made him feel, he wont be able to do that.. the girl just wants him to just follow her orders and directions...
i now realize, not to be complacent about things.. having something wonderful now, doesn't assure someone to have it for a lifetime, it maybe for now.. and who knows what the future holds? i salute my cousins courage to stand for his decision, what ever happens.. his door is still open.. the posibility to talk with his gf again.. to open the doors for each other, who knows.. i just hope the girl would be able to realize, why it did happen?
im seeing lots of old friends @ friendster, so happy to add 'em all!
my bf is in cagayan de oro now, inspecting bayantel, he'll be be back on saturday. i miss him. yesterday was their "babang luksa" its the 1st year Anniversary of their Mother's death. so what does that mean? hehehe.. could someone answer that question for me? i'm really wishing, im praying..
2 weeks ago, he celebrated his birthday, we went to tagaytay with his family, so happy.. (i still need to scan the pix so i could post in my yahoo photos). for his birthday, i gave him, THE PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE book. i hope he will always read it. its so encouraging. so uplifting. we both need to get back to CHURCH. we need to be of service to God ALWAYS. (I know we will)
its lunch time, but i still have to finish my construction estimate... but i don't have pricing for some materials.. ill see what i can get from contacts.
this is all for now.. yeah yeah, i said im not in the mood to write, but look how long i this is now... till next blog..