Just when you’re about to sleep (turned-off the lights), thoughts and lots of thoughts sprinted through your wits, you somehow want to sleep but can’t get into relaxing your mind because of so many things pumpin’ your head, finally, you decide to write and then, blop! All that you’ve been thinking and wanting to write, seemed to vanish in thin air, whoa! Right timing huh?
Let me pull together what I could remember from al those thoughts- ahhhh.. it just started into realizing how a smile can make a difference, when you see your not so privileged neighbor modeled a humongous smile early one morning, you can’t help but smile as well, well, what made him smile kaya? Maybe he got his breakfast early as he used to.. well, it’s none of my business n din.
And then, lots of realization began to decant..
At that instant, I realized, I feel bored, I really want to do something different from the last 2months ive been staying here, well, i've been waiting to make my big splash to motherhood (being soo busy nesting..). I read almost all of the books I bagged in order not to feel how im feeling now, I browsed even all the right magazines I have here, so what now?
Well, maybe I really can’t wait to deliver my very first baby, want her to be on board with her bootylicious momma! I guess, this is just the feeling of wanting to see my baby! Oh! I really want to see her na, as in! (siguro, she also wants to see her mommy n din! Her daddy n din!) I usually have my Braxton-hicks every so often, I don’t know if I just have this high resistance to pain, but it’s not yet time, but I really hope I’m really, really nearing it. I don’t want to be in the hospital only to realize that i just had false labor, I want to be sure of it, and so I really need some signs. I read lots about going through labor, but maybe, it’s a different pain before I would kick my booty to go to the hospital.
Another thing I came to realize, province attitude didn’t change much- my titas are still the same bunch of nervous freaks, and that includes my mother. One day, you tell them, you’re not feeling well, because the baby keeps on kicking, take a look at their faces, it only means one thing, “ano, pupunta na ba tayo sa hospital?” the worried looks in their faces, hay naku! It’s fine and even good to know that they’re so concerned pero ung mauna pa silang nerbyosin s akin, ewan ko lang ha, that much of minding really doesn’t help me at all, not at all. So I end up, keeping feelings/things to myself, I guess ill say what I feel, if it really is the right time. I don’t like those stares of questioning, I soo don’t like it. It feels like, I need to explain how I feel every now and then, like every feeling has an explanation, and every dream is controllable, like I had this bad dream before and I was asked why I dreamed of that, hello! As if I can control dreams!
Oftentimes I also asked why do people complain about other people (no exemption to that...), why are we not satisfied with what we have.. but somehow in the process.. I myself somehow was able to be contended.. but maybe, people are not really satisfied.. they tell themselves, if only I have this, then I’ll be happier.. and when they reach that place.. I want more, they say. Sigh.. human nature..
I know i'm nearing my high time and i'm just so excited and that i can't really hide it (yeah, just like the song..) so much so, now.. i need to relax.
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
title-less.. nevermind.
im a little blue but disappointed in so many ways.
i should not be,
not in this situation.. it could
affect, not just me but my very precious and most adored baby
(though haven't seen her just yet),
but i really hope it wont affect much-that's the reason why i need to write
( i guess at first, hmmm).
i never find is amusing to have a conversation with a moron/fool,
(i don't have a luxutious time to spare) well who does?
a proverb once told:
the woman folly is loud;she is undisciplined and without knowledge.
it indeed is..
what's so disappointing is along with those inevitable crossings
with the fool,
the people who you thought would somehow
feel embarass of how someone reacted never even gave you support..
is it only bec they don't know how to react?
or they're just afraid of what could happen?
why can't they correct? is it because the other person
doesn't take correction the way correction should be taken?
to avoid fights, maybe is the reason why they
just kept quiet?
well, i dont buy that..
i just cannot accept that!
these kind of people will just abuse those around them and they
will have this pride in themselves that
they can be kings in their own attitude bearing.
writing this is realy getting into my nerves,
i still can feel it.so i better stop and just think
happy thoughts, and maybe write happy topic..
**i wish i could have an intelligent conversation with someone everyday, kahit 5mins lang..
Sunday, April 30, 2006
RANDOM THOUGHTS and QUESTIONS
- Moods can really get in to you, you really get upset/disappointed/worried about certain things.. Uncertainty, how life can be- risky and the likes- pours your mind and is about to explode. People tend to pressure themselves to attain such goals, well of course, we all want to win, life can be, the survival of the fittest.
- Why are we sometimes ON(ed) in melancholy mode?
- I don’t feel like eating chocolates, but the ref’s full of kisses.. and I can’t resist them.. so what’s holding me?
- My OB said to slow down on carb, I’ve been gaining 6lbs/month consistently, hmpf!
- My baby’s starting to kick my belly! It feels good.. there really is JOY inside.
- Sometimes talaga, pasaway ang mga parents!
- I sooooo miss my hubby, hope I can embrace him.
- I hope our prayers be answered.
- Don’t get me wrong, am happy being pregnant, but when friends from friendsters begin to upload new pix from their vacae/summer getaway, I can’t help but envy them.. how can I again wear my swimsuit? Would it be the same body as it was before? I also looove the sceneries and views they all last went to.. of course I can also go to those places, the problem is.. I can’t really travel to places that long (now), my booties usually feels numb and I tend to urinate from time to time.
- It’s hard to watch tv, when your remote control bugged down, asar!
- I love to play chess again.
- I read the National Structural Code of the Philippines, and I enjoy it.
- My baby loves Mozart and the voice of his/her dad (earlier recorded).
- I like Fred of the PBB teen ed., hehehehe..
- Thank God, my PC is a-ok!
- Am excited for Joan’s and Emz’s Wedding!
- Looking forward for my baby’s Baby Shower, where will I hold it kaya?
- I I miss reading tins, Ariane and Tiepee's blogs.
- Why are we sometimes ON(ed) in melancholy mode?
- I don’t feel like eating chocolates, but the ref’s full of kisses.. and I can’t resist them.. so what’s holding me?
- My OB said to slow down on carb, I’ve been gaining 6lbs/month consistently, hmpf!
- My baby’s starting to kick my belly! It feels good.. there really is JOY inside.
- Sometimes talaga, pasaway ang mga parents!
- I sooooo miss my hubby, hope I can embrace him.
- I hope our prayers be answered.
- Don’t get me wrong, am happy being pregnant, but when friends from friendsters begin to upload new pix from their vacae/summer getaway, I can’t help but envy them.. how can I again wear my swimsuit? Would it be the same body as it was before? I also looove the sceneries and views they all last went to.. of course I can also go to those places, the problem is.. I can’t really travel to places that long (now), my booties usually feels numb and I tend to urinate from time to time.
- It’s hard to watch tv, when your remote control bugged down, asar!
- I love to play chess again.
- I read the National Structural Code of the Philippines, and I enjoy it.
- My baby loves Mozart and the voice of his/her dad (earlier recorded).
- I like Fred of the PBB teen ed., hehehehe..
- Thank God, my PC is a-ok!
- Am excited for Joan’s and Emz’s Wedding!
- Looking forward for my baby’s Baby Shower, where will I hold it kaya?
- I I miss reading tins, Ariane and Tiepee's blogs.
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
drama, drama, drama
yes, drama... and lotza drama.
it occurs in our daily being, not being in the mood to go to the city, then make up for pretext to get what you really wanted.
what's wrong with gettin' what you want?
it may only be wrong if you're giving some despondency to your loved-ones or to some.
or maybe you abandon the things you ought to do, manage to be an enhanced individual.
a profound persona as time goes by and become wiser, the longer you stay in this life.
and what happens to all sorts of lesson you learned while having the same heartache other people gave you?
it may really seem incomprehensible, but at times life sometimes really is unfair.
i really don't know why i'm in the mood to write sad thoughts.. a drama, you may call, but i ain't poignant. i'm not even sad, i guess i just want to write these...
ow! i can be an actress, or maybe someone who can reinvent fiction.
it occurs in our daily being, not being in the mood to go to the city, then make up for pretext to get what you really wanted.
what's wrong with gettin' what you want?
it may only be wrong if you're giving some despondency to your loved-ones or to some.
or maybe you abandon the things you ought to do, manage to be an enhanced individual.
a profound persona as time goes by and become wiser, the longer you stay in this life.
and what happens to all sorts of lesson you learned while having the same heartache other people gave you?
it may really seem incomprehensible, but at times life sometimes really is unfair.
i really don't know why i'm in the mood to write sad thoughts.. a drama, you may call, but i ain't poignant. i'm not even sad, i guess i just want to write these...
ow! i can be an actress, or maybe someone who can reinvent fiction.
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
Scatterbrained me
really don't understand at all..
eversince been 2x to the hospital (i rather not disclose the details what has transpired), i have been sooo forgetful
i don't remember the last email addie i put in this group i joined, kaasar and the worse is sometimes i forget the word am just about to type.. hmmmpfff!
am annoyed not to mention agitated with this so-not-me behavior.. i knew mahself as one who don't easily forget.
oh, well, maybe the cliche's true, anaesthesia (i hope i spelled it right) works but they it leaves a bad effect of being scatterbrained, waaaaahhhh!
is there any way, this wont blow so fast on me? any tips or suggestions? do i need to take some vitamins so my brain would work the same as it was before?
or am i just gettin' older?
Sunday, August 28, 2005
a memorable day..
Got the pix from a friend's webshot
and yes... i tied the knot.... sowee guys... (har,har, har)
The Bride and the Groom
and yes... i tied the knot.... sowee guys... (har,har, har)
The Bride and the Groom
Monday, July 25, 2005
my three's from Teng!
* Three names i go by:
1. Edez
2. Edes
3. Zede
*Three screen names i had
1. edezther
2. sede_nanaram
3. edes
*Three physical thungs i like bout myself
1. eyes
2.butt (har!har!, asset!)
3.blunt
*Three physical things i don't like bout myself
1.hot-tempered
2.impatient
3.small sized feet
*Three parts of my heritage
1.espanola
2.chinese
3.filipino
*Three things that scare me
1.hell
2.being along
3.separation
*Three of my everyday essential
1. lip balm
2.tissue
3.bible
*Three of fave musical artists
1.beethoven (for now..)
2. MOZART (for now again...hehehe..)
3.Usher
*Three of my fave songs
1. the prayer (eversince i got married)
2. ill make love to u (boys2men)
3. beautiful people (mariah carey)
*Three things i want in a relationship
1. loyalty & faithfulness (do they have the sam meaning?)
2.honesty
3.prayer
*Three lies and truths
(hmmm... thse kept me thinking)
1.Vatican is a sacred city
2.hell is here
3.there's reincarnation
1.God is omni-potent
2.opportunity knocks twice
3.we all need life's lesson
*Three physical things about the opposite sex that attracts me
1. chest/torso
2.eyes
3.height & teeth
*Three of my fave hobbies
1.chatting
2.reading
3.cleaning
*Three things i want to do really badly now
1.take a vacae
2.watch tv the whole day
2.travel
*Three carrers i considered
1.flight attendant (would u believe, a technical person like me?)
2.doctor (i think every child though bout taking that)
3.Engineer
*Three places for my vacae
1.HK (want to see the new built disneyland!)
2.Bora!
3.tokyo
*Three kids name i like
1.ethan
2.james
3.eirene
*Three things i want to do before i die
1. served my purpose-spread God's good news
2. have children and grandchildren
3. be prosperous
*Three ways that am stereotypically am a boi!
1.am an engineer
2.i manage property
3. i always wear pants
***cant finish everything tins..but will be back
*mwuah*
1. Edez
2. Edes
3. Zede
*Three screen names i had
1. edezther
2. sede_nanaram
3. edes
*Three physical thungs i like bout myself
1. eyes
2.butt (har!har!, asset!)
3.blunt
*Three physical things i don't like bout myself
1.hot-tempered
2.impatient
3.small sized feet
*Three parts of my heritage
1.espanola
2.chinese
3.filipino
*Three things that scare me
1.hell
2.being along
3.separation
*Three of my everyday essential
1. lip balm
2.tissue
3.bible
*Three of fave musical artists
1.beethoven (for now..)
2. MOZART (for now again...hehehe..)
3.Usher
*Three of my fave songs
1. the prayer (eversince i got married)
2. ill make love to u (boys2men)
3. beautiful people (mariah carey)
*Three things i want in a relationship
1. loyalty & faithfulness (do they have the sam meaning?)
2.honesty
3.prayer
*Three lies and truths
(hmmm... thse kept me thinking)
1.Vatican is a sacred city
2.hell is here
3.there's reincarnation
1.God is omni-potent
2.opportunity knocks twice
3.we all need life's lesson
*Three physical things about the opposite sex that attracts me
1. chest/torso
2.eyes
3.height & teeth
*Three of my fave hobbies
1.chatting
2.reading
3.cleaning
*Three things i want to do really badly now
1.take a vacae
2.watch tv the whole day
2.travel
*Three carrers i considered
1.flight attendant (would u believe, a technical person like me?)
2.doctor (i think every child though bout taking that)
3.Engineer
*Three places for my vacae
1.HK (want to see the new built disneyland!)
2.Bora!
3.tokyo
*Three kids name i like
1.ethan
2.james
3.eirene
*Three things i want to do before i die
1. served my purpose-spread God's good news
2. have children and grandchildren
3. be prosperous
*Three ways that am stereotypically am a boi!
1.am an engineer
2.i manage property
3. i always wear pants
***cant finish everything tins..but will be back
*mwuah*
Friday, July 01, 2005
The New Life...
it's been a while really..
i missed writing..but now that i'm in front and had the chance..
i can't seem to think what to write..
Should i be writing bout my busy life now?
or should i be talking bout my career?
how bout the last movie i watched?
*MARRIED LIFE*
I tell you, it really is not easy.. but once you're in..you'll definitely enjoy it.. i enjoy every minuteam with my hubby...
the chores..I do the laundry-- feels like i do almost 200% of what iusually do when i was a maiden (hahahaha!a maiden..)I also clean the room, you know it really is automatic..you don't know what force drives you to do the thingsyou need to do.. am such a lazy lass... but if could only see menow... i'm a transformed Edez!I take good care of what he needs to wear in the office, i meaneverything.. and i should say, i looove doing it, and what makesit more exciting? It's that, he a-p-p-r-e-c-i-a-t-e-s it, heappreciates me... and it feels good!i think, im more in love with him now... (giggles!)
*WORK, WORK, WORK*
I'm assigned to another project now... onesaid, that'll be a good opportunity for me (did i got that spelled right?)hope it would.. and i just hope i could contributein a biggie way. thanks for the favor, Mr. President.
*MONEY*
Ow! I must say, we really need to save, the last project was not that good..but what's important is the Lesson we were both able to learn..and we really just hope that there will be more projects to come.. otherwise wewill go abroad (i think everybody's thinkin' that way now, esp. if you look@ our economy)
*NOW YOU ASK ME*
am i on the way?dunno, really..me & my hubby checked last night...just 3 drops of it.. then a single line came..after a minute...another line... but not as BOLD as the first one..i really don't know what to think, or what to feel..but am 4days delayed... Haaay, sana!
*FRIENDS, FRIENDS*
I sooo missed them...
These were the last news..
my roomates
* i think Kate's already involved..
* Kath's pretty busy with her review (wish her luck)
* Jaq's happy with her bf and career
* Maibz busy with her Job and MA
my CEMEX Friends
* Ron just had his birthday and is hopeful to find Ms. Right
* Emz already has her lovelife
* Tins... i hope she's happy, but i guess she's busy with her career..
* Tessa i also hope she's happy, i know she's busy preparing for her birthday concert (Yadah!)
Barkada
* Jen's totally in loove with her guy
* Maan's still inlove with Xander (I think)
* Mah sister (Eseng) is already with her husband in dubai, and they're so happy! with Matthew their son
* Cyn's happy with Lord
* Alma's busy saving so she could get home this dec.
Current Officemates
* Joan's pregnant now
* Tin's gaining weight
* Aaron's gonna marry Joan
* Maie's not soo happy with her bf's set-up
* Milo left the company
* etc... etc...
i missed writing..but now that i'm in front and had the chance..
i can't seem to think what to write..
Should i be writing bout my busy life now?
or should i be talking bout my career?
how bout the last movie i watched?
*MARRIED LIFE*
I tell you, it really is not easy.. but once you're in..you'll definitely enjoy it.. i enjoy every minuteam with my hubby...
the chores..I do the laundry-- feels like i do almost 200% of what iusually do when i was a maiden (hahahaha!a maiden..)I also clean the room, you know it really is automatic..you don't know what force drives you to do the thingsyou need to do.. am such a lazy lass... but if could only see menow... i'm a transformed Edez!I take good care of what he needs to wear in the office, i meaneverything.. and i should say, i looove doing it, and what makesit more exciting? It's that, he a-p-p-r-e-c-i-a-t-e-s it, heappreciates me... and it feels good!i think, im more in love with him now... (giggles!)
*WORK, WORK, WORK*
I'm assigned to another project now... onesaid, that'll be a good opportunity for me (did i got that spelled right?)hope it would.. and i just hope i could contributein a biggie way. thanks for the favor, Mr. President.
*MONEY*
Ow! I must say, we really need to save, the last project was not that good..but what's important is the Lesson we were both able to learn..and we really just hope that there will be more projects to come.. otherwise wewill go abroad (i think everybody's thinkin' that way now, esp. if you look@ our economy)
*NOW YOU ASK ME*
am i on the way?dunno, really..me & my hubby checked last night...just 3 drops of it.. then a single line came..after a minute...another line... but not as BOLD as the first one..i really don't know what to think, or what to feel..but am 4days delayed... Haaay, sana!
*FRIENDS, FRIENDS*
I sooo missed them...
These were the last news..
my roomates
* i think Kate's already involved..
* Kath's pretty busy with her review (wish her luck)
* Jaq's happy with her bf and career
* Maibz busy with her Job and MA
my CEMEX Friends
* Ron just had his birthday and is hopeful to find Ms. Right
* Emz already has her lovelife
* Tins... i hope she's happy, but i guess she's busy with her career..
* Tessa i also hope she's happy, i know she's busy preparing for her birthday concert (Yadah!)
Barkada
* Jen's totally in loove with her guy
* Maan's still inlove with Xander (I think)
* Mah sister (Eseng) is already with her husband in dubai, and they're so happy! with Matthew their son
* Cyn's happy with Lord
* Alma's busy saving so she could get home this dec.
Current Officemates
* Joan's pregnant now
* Tin's gaining weight
* Aaron's gonna marry Joan
* Maie's not soo happy with her bf's set-up
* Milo left the company
* etc... etc...
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Que Sera Sera..
yes whatever will be will be...
the future's not ours to see, que sera sera...a cliche'
been through a lot!
sometimes life's full of SHIT!
and i mean shit!
i can be ur very deary biatch.. and i can be the worst ever biatch u can find...
but there's also this lousy stupid f_cking bitch!
does taking the plunge means taking the risk?
it just doesnt end there... and what the f_ck... do people do with their lives?
i know what is mine.. and i know how to get it...but i am always willing to set it free..if it likes to..
but no matter how much i wanted to let go.. the pain seems to be so visible..so transparent...ahhh! the agony of it..
if only i can change the world...
i never thought i can go this far?
is this really me, i am seeing in themirror?
a lot has changed...
there's nothing new with me.. the same thing could be expected of me..
but something in me has changed...i went through maturity...and its way beyond ur imagination...carrying through it was "wow!"
i may be s gurl like in ur telenovelas but c'est la vie!
that's the way life goes...
sometimes u move, sometimes you're stagnant...sometimes you're paranois and sometimes you're a pain in the *ss!
i dont anymore know what to say...
i will be clearer later...
sorry for keepin u thinkin'
(i may assume)
the future's not ours to see, que sera sera...a cliche'
been through a lot!
sometimes life's full of SHIT!
and i mean shit!
i can be ur very deary biatch.. and i can be the worst ever biatch u can find...
but there's also this lousy stupid f_cking bitch!
does taking the plunge means taking the risk?
it just doesnt end there... and what the f_ck... do people do with their lives?
i know what is mine.. and i know how to get it...but i am always willing to set it free..if it likes to..
but no matter how much i wanted to let go.. the pain seems to be so visible..so transparent...ahhh! the agony of it..
if only i can change the world...
i never thought i can go this far?
is this really me, i am seeing in themirror?
a lot has changed...
there's nothing new with me.. the same thing could be expected of me..
but something in me has changed...i went through maturity...and its way beyond ur imagination...carrying through it was "wow!"
i may be s gurl like in ur telenovelas but c'est la vie!
that's the way life goes...
sometimes u move, sometimes you're stagnant...sometimes you're paranois and sometimes you're a pain in the *ss!
i dont anymore know what to say...
i will be clearer later...
sorry for keepin u thinkin'
(i may assume)
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
Official........................
Yes, i could announce it (Tins, i know matagal mo na to hinihintay..)
I'm Engaged.
...
Some Dilemnas
2. There are lots of things to do...
3. and the big day is this May!
4. Don't want Wedding booo booos...
5. still have many questions..
looks like i need help.. actually i have lots of things to say..
lots of questions to ask.. but this is all i can write for now..
i actually dunno how to start...hmmmmm....
nakaka-kaba...
am i really ready for this?
I'm Engaged.
...
Some Dilemnas
2. There are lots of things to do...
3. and the big day is this May!
4. Don't want Wedding booo booos...
5. still have many questions..
looks like i need help.. actually i have lots of things to say..
lots of questions to ask.. but this is all i can write for now..
i actually dunno how to start...hmmmmm....
nakaka-kaba...
am i really ready for this?
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
On a Night Like this..........
On a Sabado night, when no one is available to accompany me on a gimik....
No one's available, from my room-mates, to my officemates, to other friends.. down to my boyfriend...
B-O-R-I-N-G! ayt?
Not so fast... lets, rewind....
I was really bored last Saturday.. Ojie's not available for he has his own gimik.. my other friends even has their own gimiks... then i finally decided to blog... i went here in an internet cafe.. and waited for the long line to use the PC.. then i decided, why not call my other friends from CEMEX?
That would be nice, ayt? So i called Tins and Tessa... and they told me, they're @ Rockwell, and
up i went, as fast as i could.
So later that night, i produced my own gimik! Hay sa wakas!
We met sa rockwell, then went to G4 to watch Oceans12... oh! how i loooooved
BRAT PITT!
I actually became Mrs. Pitt! hahahaha! dream on!
'Bout the movie... it's a bit boring.. but they are right... Catherine Zeta Jones was
sooo Drop Dead Gorgeous!
I was really happy to see Tessa and Tins.. i finally somehow caught up with how they have been doing.
Things Learned:
1. "We barely Fight" Thanks to Leng.. earlier that night..Tins and Leng met at Rockwell, had i known it.. siguro i met her too... Tins asked Leng, "Ano naman ang napag-aawayan nyo ni Pao?" Leng anwered, "We rarely fight eh.." That's the answer.. how we wish we could answer that when somebody asks us, di ba? so matured.. nakakatuwa.
(an SATC Conversation happens from Rockwell going to G4, hahaha!)
2. "What do you get from fighting?" Tessa asked.. Tins answered.." yung sarap ng lambing", Tin's right, but Tessa has a point... hindi sya maganda.. we should learn to control our emotions.. lalo na if you have my age... huhuhu.. tanda na kasi, isip bata pa, hahaha!
I learned things from really young people.. i'm so happy to know that they think, act and feel so matured.. i adore them.. i even envy the confidence they have.. i wish i could be like them...
No one's available, from my room-mates, to my officemates, to other friends.. down to my boyfriend...
B-O-R-I-N-G! ayt?
Not so fast... lets, rewind....
I was really bored last Saturday.. Ojie's not available for he has his own gimik.. my other friends even has their own gimiks... then i finally decided to blog... i went here in an internet cafe.. and waited for the long line to use the PC.. then i decided, why not call my other friends from CEMEX?
That would be nice, ayt? So i called Tins and Tessa... and they told me, they're @ Rockwell, and
up i went, as fast as i could.
So later that night, i produced my own gimik! Hay sa wakas!
We met sa rockwell, then went to G4 to watch Oceans12... oh! how i loooooved
BRAT PITT!
I actually became Mrs. Pitt! hahahaha! dream on!
'Bout the movie... it's a bit boring.. but they are right... Catherine Zeta Jones was
sooo Drop Dead Gorgeous!
I was really happy to see Tessa and Tins.. i finally somehow caught up with how they have been doing.
Things Learned:
1. "We barely Fight" Thanks to Leng.. earlier that night..Tins and Leng met at Rockwell, had i known it.. siguro i met her too... Tins asked Leng, "Ano naman ang napag-aawayan nyo ni Pao?" Leng anwered, "We rarely fight eh.." That's the answer.. how we wish we could answer that when somebody asks us, di ba? so matured.. nakakatuwa.
(an SATC Conversation happens from Rockwell going to G4, hahaha!)
2. "What do you get from fighting?" Tessa asked.. Tins answered.." yung sarap ng lambing", Tin's right, but Tessa has a point... hindi sya maganda.. we should learn to control our emotions.. lalo na if you have my age... huhuhu.. tanda na kasi, isip bata pa, hahaha!
I learned things from really young people.. i'm so happy to know that they think, act and feel so matured.. i adore them.. i even envy the confidence they have.. i wish i could be like them...
Saturday, January 01, 2005
Welcome 2005 (My Thanksgiving and thoughts)
Oh, yeah! another year had passed... time really flies so fast..
little did i know that Tins changed her webby (again), same thing with
Ariane..
What happenned?
I'm so lost with the blogging world..
Two months had passed since i was not able to update.. but i
missed alot, feels like, i missed a year or so..
So now, it's another year. And i pray that this year would be
the most promising year that i would have.. may it be in my career,
family life.. lovelife, social life and many others.. i expect alot and i mean
a lot to come my way... oh, well, not just for me, but to those i love and
treasure.. to all the friends i have.. to those i cherish and those who truly cares..
my best wishes and prayers!
I'm really being positive with what will happen to my life..
for the past 4 years of me, i think i have been so pessimistic.. i have never
really believed that good things could actually happen to me.. but they did!
What really struck me most was what happenned to my career.. t'was a bliss!
Oh, lets go with my love life.. i still don't trust him that well. We still fight once in a while..
but i guess he's really being patient with my attitude (Tins, thanks for the advise!)
.. and me being patient with
my waiting.. waiting for him to marry me, hahahaha!
But i have to tell this i still have this fear of losing him.. ow! i guess everybody has that, ayt?
I hold on to prayers. I guess he's not bad after all.. oh! would i question a person who stayed
with me for 8 YEARS? Yes, you heard me right... we're on our eight(th) Year now.... hmmm what can i say... tagal na noh? sana naman.... basta!
Let's go to my family-- all i pray is that God will give my parents- Longer life.. good health..
and of course the time of their lives to worship Him and Praise Him.
With my Social life... i guess i have to work a little more on that... hehehe...
With friends! I have gained a lot, from Blogspot, to my new job and to different walks of life... I'm to thankful to be surrounded by these people.
To God, i'm so thankful for all the blessings! For the things learned in the past.. for the
sad memories.. the ache, hatred because they made me a better person, a matured one. He is continuing to MOLD me, and i'm so grateful for that.
A very wondeful year to all of us! Best of LUCK!
God bless.
little did i know that Tins changed her webby (again), same thing with
Ariane..
What happenned?
I'm so lost with the blogging world..
Two months had passed since i was not able to update.. but i
missed alot, feels like, i missed a year or so..
So now, it's another year. And i pray that this year would be
the most promising year that i would have.. may it be in my career,
family life.. lovelife, social life and many others.. i expect alot and i mean
a lot to come my way... oh, well, not just for me, but to those i love and
treasure.. to all the friends i have.. to those i cherish and those who truly cares..
my best wishes and prayers!
I'm really being positive with what will happen to my life..
for the past 4 years of me, i think i have been so pessimistic.. i have never
really believed that good things could actually happen to me.. but they did!
What really struck me most was what happenned to my career.. t'was a bliss!
Oh, lets go with my love life.. i still don't trust him that well. We still fight once in a while..
but i guess he's really being patient with my attitude (Tins, thanks for the advise!)
.. and me being patient with
my waiting.. waiting for him to marry me, hahahaha!
But i have to tell this i still have this fear of losing him.. ow! i guess everybody has that, ayt?
I hold on to prayers. I guess he's not bad after all.. oh! would i question a person who stayed
with me for 8 YEARS? Yes, you heard me right... we're on our eight(th) Year now.... hmmm what can i say... tagal na noh? sana naman.... basta!
Let's go to my family-- all i pray is that God will give my parents- Longer life.. good health..
and of course the time of their lives to worship Him and Praise Him.
With my Social life... i guess i have to work a little more on that... hehehe...
With friends! I have gained a lot, from Blogspot, to my new job and to different walks of life... I'm to thankful to be surrounded by these people.
To God, i'm so thankful for all the blessings! For the things learned in the past.. for the
sad memories.. the ache, hatred because they made me a better person, a matured one. He is continuing to MOLD me, and i'm so grateful for that.
A very wondeful year to all of us! Best of LUCK!
God bless.
Friday, December 03, 2004
some updates... (shall i call it?)
Due to uncertain events in my life..
i was not able to duly update what i need to let my friends know,
things of how ihave been doing...
These uncertain events surely did changed my decisionsin career life..
but God really is guiding me.. leaving my so-now-career was
not part of my plan this year.. but it just happenned..
just like that.. and as it turned out as i said..
it was a BLESSING..A BLESSING IN DISGUISE shall you call it.
And i'm a Property Manager now..
ill be handling some properties in theMetro or maybe in the provincial area.. One of the things i really wanted
to do for the longest time now.
And because of that.. i temporarily somehow left the blogging world..
well not really, because i tried to be updated with what's going on with my friends and somehow tried to exchage his and hellos to them...
Man, i surely missed reading.. and i really missed writting as well.
I'll be updating soon..I just would like to mention this...
Tins whatever you're going through... i know you can pass through that..i miss chatting w/ you.
Tiepee.. i missed reading your blogs.. the smiles that you give me whenever i read things about you..
Ariane.. i also missed your adventures and the liberating feeling when i read your bloG..
YOU GUYS ROCK!
** guys sorry if i have wrong grammar or spelling here... this is impromptu.. not to mention that i have a slow dial-up..
i was not able to duly update what i need to let my friends know,
things of how ihave been doing...
These uncertain events surely did changed my decisionsin career life..
but God really is guiding me.. leaving my so-now-career was
not part of my plan this year.. but it just happenned..
just like that.. and as it turned out as i said..
it was a BLESSING..A BLESSING IN DISGUISE shall you call it.
And i'm a Property Manager now..
ill be handling some properties in theMetro or maybe in the provincial area.. One of the things i really wanted
to do for the longest time now.
And because of that.. i temporarily somehow left the blogging world..
well not really, because i tried to be updated with what's going on with my friends and somehow tried to exchage his and hellos to them...
Man, i surely missed reading.. and i really missed writting as well.
I'll be updating soon..I just would like to mention this...
Tins whatever you're going through... i know you can pass through that..i miss chatting w/ you.
Tiepee.. i missed reading your blogs.. the smiles that you give me whenever i read things about you..
Ariane.. i also missed your adventures and the liberating feeling when i read your bloG..
YOU GUYS ROCK!
** guys sorry if i have wrong grammar or spelling here... this is impromptu.. not to mention that i have a slow dial-up..
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
the hole on the big baloon
I dont get it...
Why do people get so affected by other people?
to the point of being uneasy with the situation esp. whenever that person is present.
Is it because they don't jive?
Or they are too much to handle?
Or just maybe they have a strong personality?
And they are being intimidated?
It's rather sad when these people becomes judgemental of another person's doing...
at any given random situation, they will always find a way to be irritated
and say all sorts of things they wanted to say, without even thinking.
On the contrary, the other person seems unaffected!
Isn't it funny to see these people be soooo overly affected by nothing to be affected of? (hahaha! Pity!)
As another Blogger asked.. why are we being drawn to other people's lives?
Why do we always want to know what he/she has done.. mistakes in the past maybe or something
about her/his lovelife now? even her/his career or career move?
Sometimes it's funny, but this is so true and is really happening.
Oh! yesh! And welcome to the real world!
I don't know if im being transparent of my writting now,
but yes... it has something to do with me.
*****
When friends becomes Foes
Someone dear to me is experiencing this battle,
with some people in her environment.
She's just a typical college student
whose got big dreams and will do everything to
achieve them... and this thing happenned..
beacause of her innocence, she didn't know
she's heading for a disaster.
ThEse errrr...so-called friends tolerate her for doing this wrong thing.
Telling her it's fine and it's nothing but normal.. she can't
be abnormal so they say....
They're there for her for every happy moment, she
celebrated with them.. not minding the time.. not minding
the consequences that may fall into her when the time comes..
And the time comes... and all these people surrounding
her were nowhere to be found.. they blatantly.. "LEFT HER".
She's left all alone and without anybody to embrace her, not
anyone to hold her hand.
And then she came to her senses.. she needs to be back on the
right track.
She needs to leave all those problems away,
Trash all the garbage and excess baggage she has on.
She's still on the process... but i know she will be THERE SOON.
Always remember:
A Friend will always say the truth even if it hurts.
A Friend will respect but will not tolerate wrong doing.
A Friend will be there through good times and bad.
A Friend can feel what you feel.
A Friend loves at all times.
Why do people get so affected by other people?
to the point of being uneasy with the situation esp. whenever that person is present.
Is it because they don't jive?
Or they are too much to handle?
Or just maybe they have a strong personality?
And they are being intimidated?
It's rather sad when these people becomes judgemental of another person's doing...
at any given random situation, they will always find a way to be irritated
and say all sorts of things they wanted to say, without even thinking.
On the contrary, the other person seems unaffected!
Isn't it funny to see these people be soooo overly affected by nothing to be affected of? (hahaha! Pity!)
As another Blogger asked.. why are we being drawn to other people's lives?
Why do we always want to know what he/she has done.. mistakes in the past maybe or something
about her/his lovelife now? even her/his career or career move?
Sometimes it's funny, but this is so true and is really happening.
Oh! yesh! And welcome to the real world!
I don't know if im being transparent of my writting now,
but yes... it has something to do with me.
*****
When friends becomes Foes
Someone dear to me is experiencing this battle,
with some people in her environment.
She's just a typical college student
whose got big dreams and will do everything to
achieve them... and this thing happenned..
beacause of her innocence, she didn't know
she's heading for a disaster.
ThEse errrr...so-called friends tolerate her for doing this wrong thing.
Telling her it's fine and it's nothing but normal.. she can't
be abnormal so they say....
They're there for her for every happy moment, she
celebrated with them.. not minding the time.. not minding
the consequences that may fall into her when the time comes..
And the time comes... and all these people surrounding
her were nowhere to be found.. they blatantly.. "LEFT HER".
She's left all alone and without anybody to embrace her, not
anyone to hold her hand.
And then she came to her senses.. she needs to be back on the
right track.
She needs to leave all those problems away,
Trash all the garbage and excess baggage she has on.
She's still on the process... but i know she will be THERE SOON.
Always remember:
A Friend will always say the truth even if it hurts.
A Friend will respect but will not tolerate wrong doing.
A Friend will be there through good times and bad.
A Friend can feel what you feel.
A Friend loves at all times.
Monday, September 20, 2004
Emmy Awards
How's that for arriving at the Emmys?
Though she didn't bag any Award... she's still a winner, with a hottie by her side... wooohoooohooo!
I almost didn't go to work this morning coz i really wanted to see the Emmys via Satelite. Well, i'm not a fan of all those Tv Series.. but i am, with the Comedy area.. esp. SATC and Will & Grace.
I liked Cynthia Nixon's (Miranda) line, when she said..... "I, wow... I have been acting for 25 years, since i was 12, and i hope to act for another 50. But i don't think i would ever have a job like this one (referring to SATC), I MISS IT."--- she won Supporting Actress for, hmmm Comedy Series (got it right).
I was late for the office.
At least i somehow took a look of it.
Thursday, September 16, 2004
Resignation
M: Do you know the latest buzz?
Me: Nope i was out yesterday, nasa field ako.
M: Mag-re-resign na daw si Sir R_ _ _ _ e.
Me: Really? Ah, maybe because he'll be leaving the
country na, coz i know he and his family will move
to Canada. Why the Sad Face?
M: Wala lang. Baka kasi till October na lang sya.
I must admit, i felt Sad too though i didn't show it.
I never thought that it would be this early,
it's a bolt from the blue disclosure. *Grimacing*
And also, now, the trepidation is eating me.
He is someone who helped me attain
a somehow peaceful life in the company.
But now that he'll be leaving.. what will happen to me?
What will happen to all our Project for Construction?
How will i be able to talk to Bidders, Contractors, Supplier, etc..
And the most painful partl, how can i be able to talk to the Boss?
We may not have a very good relationship because i
put a wall between us.
The reason being is so i can communicate
with him in a professional way.
He is someone who tries to reach out everybody.
And he is someone who is adored by everyone.
But because of my resentful attitude and sometimes "isip-bata"
he didn'teven bother to be really friends with me and he
instead became in close proximity to other people in the office.
Actually it's much better for me, i don't know,
but i thought that you will not always find the best of
friends you may have in the office... but with this experience,
i think i have proved myself wrong.
And looking back... i actually found Treasured Friends
in the Companies i have worked wih... and those
friends really have kept Open Communication
with me. And they do still care.
I should change some of my ways, i must say. *melancholy*
I wish him all the Best in his Life.. in his Family and Career.
Albeit i may not be able to say it..
Me: Nope i was out yesterday, nasa field ako.
M: Mag-re-resign na daw si Sir R_ _ _ _ e.
Me: Really? Ah, maybe because he'll be leaving the
country na, coz i know he and his family will move
to Canada. Why the Sad Face?
M: Wala lang. Baka kasi till October na lang sya.
I must admit, i felt Sad too though i didn't show it.
I never thought that it would be this early,
it's a bolt from the blue disclosure. *Grimacing*
And also, now, the trepidation is eating me.
He is someone who helped me attain
a somehow peaceful life in the company.
But now that he'll be leaving.. what will happen to me?
What will happen to all our Project for Construction?
How will i be able to talk to Bidders, Contractors, Supplier, etc..
And the most painful partl, how can i be able to talk to the Boss?
We may not have a very good relationship because i
put a wall between us.
The reason being is so i can communicate
with him in a professional way.
He is someone who tries to reach out everybody.
And he is someone who is adored by everyone.
But because of my resentful attitude and sometimes "isip-bata"
he didn'teven bother to be really friends with me and he
instead became in close proximity to other people in the office.
Actually it's much better for me, i don't know,
but i thought that you will not always find the best of
friends you may have in the office... but with this experience,
i think i have proved myself wrong.
And looking back... i actually found Treasured Friends
in the Companies i have worked wih... and those
friends really have kept Open Communication
with me. And they do still care.
I should change some of my ways, i must say. *melancholy*
I wish him all the Best in his Life.. in his Family and Career.
Albeit i may not be able to say it..
Thursday, September 02, 2004
Movies, Movies
Chasing Papi!
I watched this Movie last night,and it was so funny!
My roomate got a CD from her officemate and
we were curious about it. At first, the movie sounds like
SATC. But not quite.
Actually it's a Hollywood Cliche' movie but still
the casting and the dialogues made us laugh hard!
Who could resist these 3 lovely ladies of different
personalities and character?
The movie is a get-away-film-from-workstress.
You could actually forget how busy you had become
if you've seen this.
It's a breezy exercise in Latina Lib!
"Chasing Papi is a premarital variant of some movies, with enough jiggle to compete with The Sweetest Thing and Charlie's Angel. The sexy fun begins when well-meaning Latino lover Tomás (Eduardo Verastegui), who is by the way is really sexy, is confronted by the three girlfriends he's been wooing while traveling on business: Miami cocktail waitress Cici (Sofia Vergara)--she's a Sexy Gurl!, New York heiress Patricia (Jaci Velasquez)--The Class one!, and Chicago attorney Lorena (Roselyn Sanchez)-- one HOT, HOT Lady! have discovered Tomás's infidelity, and they're primed for payback. Their romantic revenge involves a contrived subplot of drug money, inept criminals, and an FBI agent (Lisa Vidal), but it's the allied girlfriends who steal this dim-witted fashion show. The female costars are smart, sassy, and incredibly attractive. The Script keeps the comedy on an even, good-natured keel. The laughs are sporadic at best, but Chasing Papi is a bubbly babe-fest that either gender can appreciate, but maybe most girls will"
The movie actually has a Moral Lesson: "We don't really need men to become Who we really want to Be"
*shouts to the woman of our generation*
*********
the notebook
I watched the Premier of The Notebook last Tuesday
at the Megamall. Got the tickets from my cousin who
cannot see the movie bcoz she has a trip to Bangkok (kainggit!)
The Movie was fine, maybe it's not what i really expected it to be.
I haven't read the book yet.. so i don't know what area they have changed.
But i look forward to reading it.
The movie really is cheesy, but definitely moving.
Specially when Noah was wooing Ally... hmmm.. the best part
of the a booming relationship.. the courting part! awww! kilig to the bones.
I didn't like the ending though maybe that really what has happenned
in the book.
Ryan Gosling, Rachel McAdams makes a credible romantic hero.
"Unapologetic romantic schmaltz (it's Lifetime meets the Hallmark Hall of Fame), "The Notebook" is well worth the risk of diabetic shock for the sake of superb acting that transcends its teary milieu.
I watched this Movie last night,and it was so funny!
My roomate got a CD from her officemate and
we were curious about it. At first, the movie sounds like
SATC. But not quite.
Actually it's a Hollywood Cliche' movie but still
the casting and the dialogues made us laugh hard!
Who could resist these 3 lovely ladies of different
personalities and character?
The movie is a get-away-film-from-workstress.
You could actually forget how busy you had become
if you've seen this.
It's a breezy exercise in Latina Lib!
"Chasing Papi is a premarital variant of some movies, with enough jiggle to compete with The Sweetest Thing and Charlie's Angel. The sexy fun begins when well-meaning Latino lover Tomás (Eduardo Verastegui), who is by the way is really sexy, is confronted by the three girlfriends he's been wooing while traveling on business: Miami cocktail waitress Cici (Sofia Vergara)--she's a Sexy Gurl!, New York heiress Patricia (Jaci Velasquez)--The Class one!, and Chicago attorney Lorena (Roselyn Sanchez)-- one HOT, HOT Lady! have discovered Tomás's infidelity, and they're primed for payback. Their romantic revenge involves a contrived subplot of drug money, inept criminals, and an FBI agent (Lisa Vidal), but it's the allied girlfriends who steal this dim-witted fashion show. The female costars are smart, sassy, and incredibly attractive. The Script keeps the comedy on an even, good-natured keel. The laughs are sporadic at best, but Chasing Papi is a bubbly babe-fest that either gender can appreciate, but maybe most girls will"
The movie actually has a Moral Lesson: "We don't really need men to become Who we really want to Be"
*shouts to the woman of our generation*
*********
the notebook
I watched the Premier of The Notebook last Tuesday
at the Megamall. Got the tickets from my cousin who
cannot see the movie bcoz she has a trip to Bangkok (kainggit!)
The Movie was fine, maybe it's not what i really expected it to be.
I haven't read the book yet.. so i don't know what area they have changed.
But i look forward to reading it.
The movie really is cheesy, but definitely moving.
Specially when Noah was wooing Ally... hmmm.. the best part
of the a booming relationship.. the courting part! awww! kilig to the bones.
I didn't like the ending though maybe that really what has happenned
in the book.
Ryan Gosling, Rachel McAdams makes a credible romantic hero.
"Unapologetic romantic schmaltz (it's Lifetime meets the Hallmark Hall of Fame), "The Notebook" is well worth the risk of diabetic shock for the sake of superb acting that transcends its teary milieu.
Thursday, August 26, 2004
Olympics
It's odd when you visit the Olympics 2004 Official Website and inquire of the Games and Medals Standing, and find out that we have not won anything.
I researched through news and news of what's happenin' in the Olympics, not that i am a huge fan of it, not that i'm so into sports, but the thing is i want to know what's been going on with our team, the representative of our country.
All the news channel now has all-ears on the weather, i know it's really important, but should
our Newspaper and Channels also update us with what's happenin in the World of Sport?
Chances are, News channel don't pretty much update us with the Current happening
in the Olympics because they don't want to frustrate us of our Standing.
I have not known this since i visit the Olympics Website:
Men's 200m breaststroker Teofilo Yldefonzo won the Philippines' first Olympic medal when he won bronze in the 1928 Amsterdam Games behind Japanese champion Yoshiyuki Tsuruta.Yldefonzo also won bronze in 1932 in the 200m breaststroke, with Tsuruta again taking gold.The Philippines has won nine Olympic medals in total, but never gold. Its two silver medals were both won by boxers - Anthony Villanueva in 1964 and Mansueto Valesco in 1996.
and check this one out: Participants
Mind you, our last Silver Medal was in the year 1996, what happens in the gap?
Btw, here is the latest standing in the Olympics: Medals
*****
VANILLA SKY
I have watched this movie last year, watched on disk, and i watched it the second time in HBO. I don't know what has gone into me but i really find Tom Cruise So HANDSOME! Yeah, Yeah, i know you will ask me, why only now have i found that out? (maybe i was just focused on Brad Pitt) I just don't know, maybe i don't like him before, i know he's a good actor and all, but in the Vanilla Sky movie, he made me Melt, Awwww! He such a Cutie, an adorable Hottie! He has the most Tantalizing Eyes i ever seen, and why only now have i realized that?
The movie has somewhat a fiction estranged story. But the twist was fine. I don't really liked the Story, but i liked the Casting. I also liked Cameron Diaz's acting. And that thing in Manhattan where Tom Cruise Ran because it stand still... it's eerie... just imagine yourself in that world... i just don't know what one would be thinking.
Now, i really loooove Tom Cruise!
*****
Extra Challenge
I watched Extra Challenge yeasterday night coz i didn't go to to work.
There were 4 teams composed of Marilyn Reynes and his hubby, Aljon Jimenez,
Onyok and his Wife, 2gays- i forgot their name, and my so loved team:
Cynna and Railey---- Hay! Super Sweet ni Railey.
I dunno, i don't really like him before (rolls eyes) but when
i catched yesterday's episode, i think he really loves Chynna, i was so Kilig!
Oh, the Jologs in me!
I liked the part when Chynna needs to go to the Bathroom (ang baduy ko talaa) and Railey
will definitely will be going with her because where one goes the other goes also.
Lam mo yun, Intimate moment yun ni Chynna noh! hahaha! But Railey was there, hehehe..
Basta gusto ko na si Railey ngayon, kahit payatut sya.
I hope i could watch it tonight.
I researched through news and news of what's happenin' in the Olympics, not that i am a huge fan of it, not that i'm so into sports, but the thing is i want to know what's been going on with our team, the representative of our country.
All the news channel now has all-ears on the weather, i know it's really important, but should
our Newspaper and Channels also update us with what's happenin in the World of Sport?
Chances are, News channel don't pretty much update us with the Current happening
in the Olympics because they don't want to frustrate us of our Standing.
I have not known this since i visit the Olympics Website:
Men's 200m breaststroker Teofilo Yldefonzo won the Philippines' first Olympic medal when he won bronze in the 1928 Amsterdam Games behind Japanese champion Yoshiyuki Tsuruta.Yldefonzo also won bronze in 1932 in the 200m breaststroke, with Tsuruta again taking gold.The Philippines has won nine Olympic medals in total, but never gold. Its two silver medals were both won by boxers - Anthony Villanueva in 1964 and Mansueto Valesco in 1996.
and check this one out: Participants
Mind you, our last Silver Medal was in the year 1996, what happens in the gap?
Btw, here is the latest standing in the Olympics: Medals
*****
VANILLA SKY
I have watched this movie last year, watched on disk, and i watched it the second time in HBO. I don't know what has gone into me but i really find Tom Cruise So HANDSOME! Yeah, Yeah, i know you will ask me, why only now have i found that out? (maybe i was just focused on Brad Pitt) I just don't know, maybe i don't like him before, i know he's a good actor and all, but in the Vanilla Sky movie, he made me Melt, Awwww! He such a Cutie, an adorable Hottie! He has the most Tantalizing Eyes i ever seen, and why only now have i realized that?
The movie has somewhat a fiction estranged story. But the twist was fine. I don't really liked the Story, but i liked the Casting. I also liked Cameron Diaz's acting. And that thing in Manhattan where Tom Cruise Ran because it stand still... it's eerie... just imagine yourself in that world... i just don't know what one would be thinking.
Now, i really loooove Tom Cruise!
*****
Extra Challenge
I watched Extra Challenge yeasterday night coz i didn't go to to work.
There were 4 teams composed of Marilyn Reynes and his hubby, Aljon Jimenez,
Onyok and his Wife, 2gays- i forgot their name, and my so loved team:
Cynna and Railey---- Hay! Super Sweet ni Railey.
I dunno, i don't really like him before (rolls eyes) but when
i catched yesterday's episode, i think he really loves Chynna, i was so Kilig!
Oh, the Jologs in me!
I liked the part when Chynna needs to go to the Bathroom (ang baduy ko talaa) and Railey
will definitely will be going with her because where one goes the other goes also.
Lam mo yun, Intimate moment yun ni Chynna noh! hahaha! But Railey was there, hehehe..
Basta gusto ko na si Railey ngayon, kahit payatut sya.
I hope i could watch it tonight.
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
Pieces of Insecurities
My body is ah, what? hmmppfff!
I'm not comfortable anymore.
My b*a size is getting bigger, not that my b**bs are getting big,
but it's because of the fats i have accumulated, my back is getting
bigger thus giving me a hard time wearing my b*a for a long time.
And i need to buy new sets now? Is that the Solution i should do?
Lately, i think i am really gaining lots of weight.
Not that i don't have any control of what i'm eating
(but sometimes... hey! don't we all need some time to
rest from the boring diet every now and then?)
I'm extremely jealous of my sister (no, not the unhealthy jealousy)
coz she apparently already have a four year old son,
she's been married for four years, oh, umm, i think five years already.
And when you look at my sister's bod, you can definitely
not have any clue that she's a mom! Talk about her fast metabolism.
No marks of unwanted fats on obvious areas *sigh*
and when you look at me,the next thing you may be asking
is if im the mom of my nephew, grrr. kaasar.
I love my sister for being that way, and i'm so proud of her coz if she's all that,
i can be all that too, errr...right?
I actually have broad shoulder, that's so fine with me,
but the thing i most hate is: i have Humongous Arms!
And i can't even wear sleeveless blouse, which i love to do!
I'm actually one of those "Judays Body Type" (No-offense to fans).
I mean i don't really look good wearing sleeveless shirt or blouses.
I'm so macho. (ahuhuhuhu..)
What i can always do, is to hide it, damn!
And hope not anyone would discover it. And say, "Wow! Legs!"
(I wish my body is a wonderland- ok, dream on! murmur)
Well, i get most of my insecurities from my arm. I have to Admit.
So i always end up wearing shirts or blouse with sleeves, hmmm..pretty boring.
Forgive my ka-okrayan, i can't help it... it's been a long time coming..
Is there any way to take some inch off my arm?
Is there any regimen?
Is there any special diet specifically for my big arms?
Maybe some exercise?
Or what food should i avoid, are there any?
Ok, just some of my counteless questions... or is it, because of my genes?
My upper body is becoming something-bigger, seems not how it was before.
And now, the more i wanted to diet, the more i would eat.. Sad but really True.
I'm not comfortable anymore.
My b*a size is getting bigger, not that my b**bs are getting big,
but it's because of the fats i have accumulated, my back is getting
bigger thus giving me a hard time wearing my b*a for a long time.
And i need to buy new sets now? Is that the Solution i should do?
Lately, i think i am really gaining lots of weight.
Not that i don't have any control of what i'm eating
(but sometimes... hey! don't we all need some time to
rest from the boring diet every now and then?)
I'm extremely jealous of my sister (no, not the unhealthy jealousy)
coz she apparently already have a four year old son,
she's been married for four years, oh, umm, i think five years already.
And when you look at my sister's bod, you can definitely
not have any clue that she's a mom! Talk about her fast metabolism.
No marks of unwanted fats on obvious areas *sigh*
and when you look at me,the next thing you may be asking
is if im the mom of my nephew, grrr. kaasar.
I love my sister for being that way, and i'm so proud of her coz if she's all that,
i can be all that too, errr...right?
I actually have broad shoulder, that's so fine with me,
but the thing i most hate is: i have Humongous Arms!
And i can't even wear sleeveless blouse, which i love to do!
I'm actually one of those "Judays Body Type" (No-offense to fans).
I mean i don't really look good wearing sleeveless shirt or blouses.
I'm so macho. (ahuhuhuhu..)
What i can always do, is to hide it, damn!
And hope not anyone would discover it. And say, "Wow! Legs!"
(I wish my body is a wonderland- ok, dream on! murmur)
Well, i get most of my insecurities from my arm. I have to Admit.
So i always end up wearing shirts or blouse with sleeves, hmmm..pretty boring.
Forgive my ka-okrayan, i can't help it... it's been a long time coming..
Is there any way to take some inch off my arm?
Is there any regimen?
Is there any special diet specifically for my big arms?
Maybe some exercise?
Or what food should i avoid, are there any?
Ok, just some of my counteless questions... or is it, because of my genes?
My upper body is becoming something-bigger, seems not how it was before.
And now, the more i wanted to diet, the more i would eat.. Sad but really True.
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
Family Man
with Two Men, my Boyfriend and his Kuya.
watching it all over again.
What excites me was, Joseph actually liked it, and so i think did his Kuya.
Because i saw them smile in some parts (hmmm... now i wonder, did the movie made them think to start a family?). Should i just mind my own business... hehehe...
Like what happenned to Jack (Nicholas Cage) i want to have a glimpse of what could be..
What will happen to me in the future or what could happen if i did this... if i decided to take this... and that... and the list goes on and on and on and on... actually it's endless.
(Glimpse of me--- if after graduation i went to the U.S.
1. I'm already married- well i hope so
2. I have two children- a boy and a girl (oh, that was like Jack)
3. I'm a Structural Engineer now
4. I may return once in a while in the Philippines for my relatives and friends
5. I have Joseph as my Loving, Responsible, God-fearing, Faithful Husband
And that's so nice to look at. Or i'd rather call it, a Perfect-Glimpse.
But anyways, im here... i still thank being here coz i wont be the person i am now without the things i went
through, but maybe this is my destiny. God knows when the wheel will turn.
And of course if i'm not here, i'm not sure if i blog-hehehe)
What strucked me in the Movie is, no matter how strong or powerful or famous or smart, successful or wise a person think he is---- he will always and always need someone to be with-- someone to share the joy and happiness he has in his life.
And, we may always not be satisfied with what we already have... but people can actually "envy" the simplest things that we have and do.
And that includes a family.
I wish my bf would want to be a Family Man sooner (wishful thinking and fingers crossed, hehehe)
*****
REDBOX
Me and my dormates went to Redbox last Friday and sure we did had a BLAST!
I sang the song with emotions (hahahaha!)
And i was acting like we were in some cabaret (slang)
The place was cool and i liked the rooms.
Most importantly there are many songs to choose from and some Kewl Music Videos that if you guys want to
Dance-- you certainly can.
But here's one catch, i had a headache later that night... i think it is because of the sound, it echoes
on the wall thus affecting my eardrum and head (ok sa scientific explanation ah?)and so it did some effect on my um, head- or maybe i was just hyper earlier that night- which is a thing i don't do that often (na)...whatever it is...basta i enjoyed my Friday!
Monday, August 02, 2004
Lie
And they adamantly hold on to lying. *sigh*.
Some dim-witted people continue to do this.
Last Friday this person told me she can't go to the party (need to attend a debut)
because something strange happenned to her face.
She told me, it's reddish and its hot.
I apparently got her message, she doesn't want to go with us.
But i didn't respond to her first message and still felt (well, hoped)
she may/will be coming. And so came her 2nd message telling that she can't really go.
And i still didn't respond. Because i don't know but i have this
feeling that she is not telling the truth.
Now you can call me mapag-isip ng masama.
Ok, it's fine if she is anti-social or she prefers to be with some one-on-one gimmick,
but HELLO! We talked about attending the party not the day before
or even that day but 3 days before it.
And can't she not think of a better excuse beside her alibi?
Later that evening (after the party) i got home by 12am, and guess what,
i was 15minutes earlier before her arrival.
And when i looked at her face, it's not even REDDISH!
Not even a single red or even orange thing whatsoever on her face!
Grrrr.... i didn't want to ask her, baka mapahiya lang sya sa akin,
ako pa naman, pag umandar na ko, ewan ko na lang sa kanya.
But you know what, she hold on to telling na its red daw.
Hay naku, huli na nga, deny pa!
She should have told me that she doesn't want to go,
she should have just told me the truth.
It's the least that she can do.
Well, at least for me and some friends, we're able to enjoy the night.
While she-keeps on telling me that she missed it...
AND YES SHE REALLY DID! SHE MISSED THE FUN
and the cool people around! Poor her.
According to Charles Ford people often lie about
things because they're trying to feel better about themselves.
At the other end of the spectrum, a person may lie because
psychologically he cannot acknowledge the truth
even to himself, so bogus stories allow people with
low self-esteem(take note on that) to lie.
Come Saturday, i walked up at around 730am. And i don't know
but i was really hungry so i asked Kate if she wants to
have breakfast at mcdo, and after 5minutes she's there knocking at
our door.
We have seen this "friend" (this is the same girl) dining with
a guy that she's oh well, i don't know, but she's kinda flirting. (gossip)
I was happy for her at least may pagkaka-abalahan sya.
Me and Kate went back to the dorm 30minutes earlier she did, and she
told me that the guy (she had breakfast with) asked her to go
with him to Malate later for some gimmick And i told her to go.
Now it's Sunday, i didn't know what time she arrived bacause
i was really exhausted and needed a long sleep and more rest (Zzzzzz..)
When i asked her what time she arrived, she told me, she arrived 2am.
Oh, well of course i know she went gimmick with the guy
but you know what, that poor girl told me, she didn't go
she told me she just had an Overtime at her office.
And then we chat, i believed her (i was so naive),
but i caught her, she's into telling this story, and then she goes,
"lam mo sa malate kagabi, madaming tao"
(o-0 - rolls eyes, what is it with this girl?
Why does she have to lie?
What is she hiding?
Not that im so interested or so want to know everything.
But I mean, come-on, were not that young anymore to be acting
as if were still teenagers, who doesn't want to be caught with our little crimes?)
And she noticed that i became aware that she is lying,
and she repeated, "sa malate, sa malate"and she's obviously
thinking of another word to say.
Hay naku, she can stop talking now,
because i wont believe the next thing she will say,
i don't know if i'll pity her but i'm starting to hate her.
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
Crybaby
The book has full of lessons,
Lessons in love.
Life.
Career.
Relationship.
Friends.
Family, and so much more.
Oh well, i finished reading it yesterday.
I need to have another book now.
*****
We'll be having an affair tonight for the Office.
And i still don't have anything to wear.
We have to wear something formal
but i can always go back to Basic Business Attire, right?
Would it be fine if i still wear the same business attire i am wearing now to the party tonight?
I must see.
*****
Why do i always have so many things in mind to write when im not in front of my PC?
And when its about time for me to write, i can't think of all those thoughts i have (before i started)? damn.
Is this just a sign of aging? hmmm... i wonder...
Most of the time now, i have senseless writting.
Most are just focus on me, why can't post something interesting?
Something happenin' in the world?
But will i attract people to read my blog if i do that? (do i have to do that, just to attract people?)
Ahhh, i think i just have to be me.
But i think i have to write things with sense.
I hope someday, i will.
*****
I don't want to talk with Joseph.
He attended this birthday party last night.
I don't want him to go, but i still said its up to him.
You know guys, of course he went.
He just told me that he will visit me @ my dorm because he'll be leaving early.
But you know what... he didn't... guys.. guys..guys KAINIS...GRRRRRRR!
And now, he texted me this morning, saying, I'm sorry
Bahala sya! Besides i have my party tonight, i don't need to think of him!
Monday, July 26, 2004
Book Review
Caution:
Da vinci Code Teaser
(ok, ok.. if you still haven't read the book, but has plans of reading.. then.. don't read this)
Captain Bezu Fache carried himself like an angry ox with his wide shoulders thrown back and his chin tucked hard into his chest. His dark hair was slicked back with oil, accentuating an arrow-like widow's peak that divided his jutting brow and preceded him like the prow of the battleship. As he advanced, his dark eyes seemed to scorch the earth before him, radiating a fiery clarity that forecast his reputation for unbliking severity in all matters. (Got this part from the book, look how Dan Brown can awaken our senses to read, how he described a person, surely caught my imagination)
Finished the book yesterday morning. Once you get hold of that book, you can't possibly let go of it. And i would like to share a thought or two...
Da vinci Code Teaser
(ok, ok.. if you still haven't read the book, but has plans of reading.. then.. don't read this)
Finished the book yesterday morning.
Robert Langdon- genius, one desirable man
Sophie- one desirable lady
Sauniere- full of secrets
Sauniere- full of secrets
Fache- strong personality
So i'm down to another book now (see left side)
Collet- good employee
Leigh- liar
Aringarosa- easily deceived
Silas- Obedient and clueless
As i was about to start the book, a lot of my
friends (who saw i would be reading it) told me that
it would waver my "FAITH" but as soon as they told me
that.. i was the more eager to read it. I must know why, right?
But yes, there was this part in the book that i can't
accept. Actually, i stopped reading it for a day.
Because i can't swallow it, i couldn't possibly read
something so out of my belief. (Do i need to elaborate? oh, well,
i choose not to. I must suggest, you better read it.)
But i decided to finish it. And i still have my BELIEFS.
The story is really good and the Author is Awesome!
I recommend it!
My rating:
Five- Star!
I'm looking forward for a blockbuster film of the Da Vinci Code!
Thursday, July 22, 2004
shitty people
Fuck!
'tang-ina talaga yung babaeng yun! leche sya, kung madami syang request sa engineering, maghintay sya! hindi lang sya ang inaasikaso ko! palibhasa matandang dalaga! she should GET A LIFE! 'k-bwusit!
'tang-ina talaga yung babaeng yun! leche sya, kung madami syang request sa engineering, maghintay sya! hindi lang sya ang inaasikaso ko! palibhasa matandang dalaga! she should GET A LIFE! 'k-bwusit!
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
Achy Breaky Heart, Highschool, Blogging, and Relationship
We're passing Guadalupe when i saw a thing lying beside a garden
at first i thought t'was a cat. So i decided to second-look it, and i saw, it was a puppy. (shakes head)
I want to get it from that place, but i can't, i don't know if somebody owns it, but if somebody owns it,
why does it have to be outside of the house. tsk.. tsk..
Mind you, its raining Yesterday night. Im sure the puppy is wet.
I want to keep the puppy, but what can i do? I'm so broken hearted.
I can't even get the puppy coz if i get it, where will he/she lives?
I'm just renting, and pets are not allowed. I'm stil sad about it.
*****
Me & Joseph just spent a quality time together. We talked.
We were really engrossed in our conversation about our being highschool.
He's so funny, coz he told me 'bout his being naughty at school,
where they would jump on the floors and make their teachers cry, sa sobrang inis sa kanila
Glad he enjoyed his Highschool life, as for me, medyo "patay na bata" me nuon.
I enjoyed College though..
Ahhh... so much about school...
*****
It's really nice to read Blogs from different people. They're so interesting!
I read this Blog one time (i forgot the site's name though)
The Author wrote, she likes blogging and she thinks people who blog
are those people who wants to learn more.. they keep themselves
updated with so many things.
I think people who blog are those who can't stand being Idle.
And i agree, people who blog are those who continously wants to learn.
It's Like SPEAKING THE SAME LANGUAGE
*****
My Cousin, wants to win back the love of his life..
Remember my cousin who decided not to marry his long time GF?
Well, now, after the "Magulong Stage"of his life, he wants to win her back.
And we will help him. It was the first time i saw Laarni, maganda pala sya.
And she really looks kind. I arranged a bouquet of Antorium and Roses
(does that mean, i could become a florist?) for my Cousin's gift.
Without any hesitation, Laarni accepted it.
It's really nice to see two people talk again.
I hope they could patch things sooner. (fingers crossed)
*****
Joseph will be leaving for a Property Inspection in Iloilo tomorrow.
He'll be there till Saturday Morning... and Moi, will be left here in the City.
I will surely miss him.
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
stereotyped jologs
Last Friday Ruffa Guttierez visited our office.. she is.. again.. a friend of our CEO. I just knew they had lunch at the Shangrila and proceeded to our office right after. I really was eager to see her, and after finding out she will visit the office, i was extremely excited. Oh, well call me jologs, but i love seeing beautiful people and that includes a lot of celebrities. I doesn't matter if im called one... to hell with those who pigeonhole me.
Like this officemate, after a picture with Ruffa, she asked me, "ganun ka ba talaga kahilig sa artista at nagpa-picture ka pa sa kanya sa office ni EDC (our CEO)?" Let me tell you the whole story about our picture:
Ruffa came.. she's inside the CEO's room, i need to give a paper to accounting which happens to be near the CEO's office.. and the lucky me passed the area with my cellphone in my pocket (i usually bring it with me). I heard Charlene (which is btw, our CEO's daughter) asked for a camera, and i just said, "here, i have a camera", knowing that Charlene will just take a photo of Ruffa alone. But she asked me to go inside and have a picture with Ruffa. So i posed beside her. And was happy, because i was the only one who has a picture beside her.
And that's the story. It's just so annoying for some people to label, even though she didn't used the word jologs or something, i still did get what she wanted to say. Bakit kaya, hindi sya magpakatotoo? When we had a group picture with Ruffa, she also included herself with that... And that only means one thing... JOLOGS din sya! Plastic! Hypocrite!
Also another Officemate said, "Buti hindi nahihiya ang bf mo sa yo?" That's when i told him, i asked Joseph to download the pix through bloothooth coz i don't have here. You know what, he's an as***le! He is my bf bakit nya ako ikakahihiya? masama bang magpa-picture sa isang artista, and to think hindi naman ako yung tipong nag-kakagulo over a famous star? It's just that natawag lang ako, and i was just happy, yun lang! Maybe inggit lang sila!
Oh, ayan!
Mamatay na lang sila sa Inggit!
Like this officemate, after a picture with Ruffa, she asked me, "ganun ka ba talaga kahilig sa artista at nagpa-picture ka pa sa kanya sa office ni EDC (our CEO)?" Let me tell you the whole story about our picture:
Ruffa came.. she's inside the CEO's room, i need to give a paper to accounting which happens to be near the CEO's office.. and the lucky me passed the area with my cellphone in my pocket (i usually bring it with me). I heard Charlene (which is btw, our CEO's daughter) asked for a camera, and i just said, "here, i have a camera", knowing that Charlene will just take a photo of Ruffa alone. But she asked me to go inside and have a picture with Ruffa. So i posed beside her. And was happy, because i was the only one who has a picture beside her.
And that's the story. It's just so annoying for some people to label, even though she didn't used the word jologs or something, i still did get what she wanted to say. Bakit kaya, hindi sya magpakatotoo? When we had a group picture with Ruffa, she also included herself with that... And that only means one thing... JOLOGS din sya! Plastic! Hypocrite!
Also another Officemate said, "Buti hindi nahihiya ang bf mo sa yo?" That's when i told him, i asked Joseph to download the pix through bloothooth coz i don't have here. You know what, he's an as***le! He is my bf bakit nya ako ikakahihiya? masama bang magpa-picture sa isang artista, and to think hindi naman ako yung tipong nag-kakagulo over a famous star? It's just that natawag lang ako, and i was just happy, yun lang! Maybe inggit lang sila!
if only im in hollywood
You are going to Marry Josh Hartnett. He is really
shy, but don't let that fool you. He is really
outgoing and sweet with those he loves and will
be loyal to them for the rest of his life.
Congrats!!
Which male celebrity are you going to marry? (14 choices now!!)
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Thursday, July 08, 2004
of Tennis
Man, that was one helluva game.
T'was the first time i saw S. williams defeated
(am not really a tennis rocker). I even couldn't
believe my eyes that she was indeed defeated by
a Seventeen year old Bomb!
It was Russia's Maria Sharapova who won the Wimbledon crown, defeating Serena Williams 61 64. In her first Grand Slam final, Sharapova walked away with her fourth singles title and first Grand Slam singles title. She was making only her second appearance at the Wimbledon Championships, having reached the fourth round in her debut last year.
She said, she's sorry she just have to Steal and Keep the Title from Williams for a Year.
The New Princess of Wimbledon.
Thursday, July 01, 2004
Temper
May it be in the office or in the dorm.
I'm easily aggravated, maybe its PMS.
Nakakainis sa dorm kasi may oras in taking a
bath.. 2 of my roomates go to the office @ 8am, I, on the other hand needs to be in the office by 8:30 o'clock am, and another one
@ 9am. kaya lang minsan may mga sumisingit sa T&B when its my turn
to take a bath, hassle to wait, not to mention, i will
be late, di ba? Why can't they just follow kung ano na yun
dating time of taking a bath? bakit kailangan magbago, when you know
other people will be using it.. nakakairita, parang nananadya!
(ang laki ng problema ko noh?).*sigh*
Another thing here in the Office, kasi, i received a cheque,
a Payment for my Overtime, hindi naman sya malaking halaga or anything
sandali lang naman yun overtime. But when i looked @ the
Cheque, mali ang spelling ng pangalan ko---Kulang ng "S".
I told the Treasury personnel na mali yung name, so they need to change it.
The person handling the Making of Cheque asked me, "na-try mo na
ba yan? Pumunta ka na ba sa bangko kung hindi nila tatanggapin yan?"
HELLO! Do i still need to go to the bank and be busted, and go back to the
office with the same cheque again, eh di nagsayang lang ako ng time and pagod ko?
Since nalaman ko na dito sa office pa lang na may mali, di ba
tama lang na p-correct ko na today, to avoid any hassles of going there
and wasting my time. And from her answer to me, she's insisting
na pumunta muna ako, baka makalusot, Hello! madami din kaya akong
ginagawa sa office noh! At kung pinagbubuti ba nya ang trabaho nya, hindi
siguro sya magkakamali! nakalagay naman sa voucher that my name is with
an "S". hay naku, ok lang naman magkamali kasi we really do sometimes
make mistakes, kung sana ba natawa na lang sya at sinabi na lang na "sige,
babaguhin ko na lng.." di ba mas ok pa yun?
So i answered her back, "don't make me go there with a wrong info on the
cheque.. waste of time lang yan, baguhin mo na lang."
Rude na kung rude, basta gawin nya trabaho nya! Kainis, Lulusot pa!
Eto pa blogspot ko, i had published the same blog about 10x ata yesterday, kaasar! ang daming buburahin!
One more thing, i just called joseph and told him na nasa office na ko (i was supposed to text him kaya lang drain ako) And he answered something- i forgot na, nairita uli ako, para kasing mataas ang tono, hmp! sabi ko, "sige na, nasa office na ko!" sabay baba ng fon!
Wednesday, June 30, 2004
On road accidents and violence
Only in the philippines.......
1. Can you find Automobiles that don't stop
while pedestrians need to cross the pedestrian lane.
2. Pedestrian don't cross the pedestrian lane but insist
on crossing where their lives can be in danger.
3. Drivers don't usually move in slower motion during an orange
traffic light, but still make a way to cross the junction before it hits red.
4. People are not afraid to beat the red light esp. @ night.
5. People can drive even without a shirt on top.
6. It's easy to pick up a fight when somebody has overtaken them.
7. Where the "DISTANCIA AMIGO" board doesn't count. (Dupang ba?)
8. Where it is fine not to keep on the right lane (i.e. Buses should
keep right but always on the left side) tsk..tsk..
9. Drivers don't care if their light is not appropriate- too bright for the eye of the auto opposite them.
10. It is fine to fire a gun at someone they thought had offended them (while on the road).
Sad but true.
These things happen, in our roads now.
I just wonder, why does the government give license to those irresponsible drivers and individuals? Doesn't they suppose to take Exams first and also Drug tests?
Why is so hard to discipline people.
I know it all starts from "us".
Doesn't it also start in the families? at school?
Sometimes i thought...parang ang hirap na nating baguhin, parang buluk na bulok na.
(I recently had a bad experience on the road.. made me nervous, but am glad people cooled down.. a thing people should always carry while driving.)
When can we be like Singapore? It is just a small City but look how far they got?
How amazingly their economy is growing.
We Filipinos are not just what we can be right now.. but we can do a lot more better than our
neighbors.
But if in this simple thing.. like our roads.. we can't make a difference.. then how will the whole
country be of any difference from the rest of the world?
I would no longer be surprised if in this year, a lot of people will think of migrating abroad or think
of working somewhere out of the country. We're so in this liquifaction now that... it's hard for us
to stand up again.. And we relent from being this way.
But i still have this hope... that someday we still can be one of those successful nations.
Friday, June 25, 2004
excess baggage
I can't move from that chaos, dark side of my life.
It has been 3 years.. but the pain is still here.
It really hurts.
the stupidity and the overly sensitive me...just lingers..
I just found another thing, he really did lie.
I'm not sure if the whole intuition is real.
A part of it maybe.
If he lied.. why?
Does it mean that he needs to protect the relationship
so as not to break it? Because i'm so over reacting?
Maybe i'm just really over-reacting. Talk about insecurities.
I know, i do...
But because he only let me see the good side of him..
And after five (5) years.. then i saw.. he also too has
his dark side.
Well because he's also a human, but it really hurts
to be disappointed.. esp when u highly trust someone.
But on the other end.. i also have my fair share
of disappointments.. sad moments that he can also
point to me.
this is the extreme sadness couple experience in their
relationship. The sad part for me is i can't
forget it. I can't seem to move from it.
I can't seem to bring back the trust.
I don't want to exxagerate this..
I still am not sure if they relly liked each
other. All i know is that the girl flirted him
You know, my guy.. is really a gentleman..
He never made suplado on the girl.
Maybe he did liked her.. because at that time..
i really was a nagger... im was really annoying.
Whenever i ask him, he's so consistent w/ his answers..
or may be he's a PRO. (but i am his first gf)..
But does that give him the right to, oh well,
make friends (did the girl made the 1st move?)
with her or even be close to her?
Naiinis na din ako sa sarili ko, why can't i forget it?
Why can't be forgiving? may mga kasalanan din naman ako?
Selfish ba ako?
why can't i move from it, and live my life for the future?
Maybe i need to tell it to him again.....
Friday, June 18, 2004
My best Steal and Splurge!
Here is my Version of my Steal Vs. Splurge
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My Silver Bangle from Baguio and Charriol Bracelet
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hmmmm... both sarap.
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Thursday, June 17, 2004
PAOMNNEHAL PWEOR OF THE HMUAN MNID
cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd
waht I was rdgnieg THE
PAOMNNEHAL PWEOR OF THE HMUAN MNID
Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy,
it deosn't mttaer in
waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny
iprmoatnt tihng is taht the
frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The
rset can be a taotl mses
and you can sitll raed it wouthit porbelm. Tihs is
bcuseae the huamn mnid
deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod
as a wlohe
Pertty srtagne eh?? Hvae a gerat day!!
so galing noh?
waht I was rdgnieg THE
PAOMNNEHAL PWEOR OF THE HMUAN MNID
Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy,
it deosn't mttaer in
waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny
iprmoatnt tihng is taht the
frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The
rset can be a taotl mses
and you can sitll raed it wouthit porbelm. Tihs is
bcuseae the huamn mnid
deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod
as a wlohe
Pertty srtagne eh?? Hvae a gerat day!!
what to wear
Geezzz... i hope i have this body......
Reunion
Somewhere i can live, own a dog and
love it! Where i could spend my quality
time with myself. Have peace of mind.
Something that i can call my own..
Something i can call "MY HOME"
***
I can get so lethargic in the morning.
It's always hard to wake up.
I keep on Setting my alarm at 6:30am,
but leaving the bed at 7:15am.
Always telling, "15 minutes more.."
and then..again.. "15 minutes more.."
and another 15 minutes.
Seldom do i really wake up at the time
i set..
***
I'll be gone for the weekend.
Me and my family will be going to Pangasinan.
We'll be attending a 50th Wedding Anniversary
of some relatives (i hardly knew). And this will
become some sort of Reunion for the
ARCIAGA clan. Finally, i'll be meeting them!
I just wonder, will i ever get to understand them?
It's because whenever some relatives come and visit us,
they always talk Ilokano and i don't speak
the dialect, we were not taught.
But what excites me is, after the Wedding, we'll
be going to Baguio, my Tatay said, we have a
relative who owns a house there ( i wish i could own a house there too!)
and then it will be Ukay-ukay time!
what i really don't like is...........
i have this very annoying pimple on my nose!
sobrang nakakainis! sana na lang mawala na sya by
Saturday, kakahiya naman noh!
Should i go to the derma tonight? And have my pimple prick?
Would in not be too late? *moan*
bahala na mamaya
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
Annoyed
tinanong mo ng maayos.. nakaasak agad sumagot?
(NAKAASAK=PABALANG, PA-GALIT)
*sigh* Pero maybe ganun talaga sila?...
Kailangan mo n lang intindihin.Kaya lng nakakainis talaga.
I just wonder, may mga tao nga ba talaga na nakakatiis
na makasama sila ng matagal?
I guess, wala... for a time siguro magkakaron,
then mawawala din. Pero one really needs patience
in communicating with them, pambihira, ang hirap
talaga intindihin!
I just hope those kind of people would really realize
that they're being annoying. And these people still
ask the question.. why they still haven't met a partner
for their lives...hmmm.. and they still wonder? huh?
(pakibaba nga ang isa kong KILAY!)
hay naku..................
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
Usher and A. Keys
some attitude
One needs to do what he ought to do, or at least
stick to what he do best.
Im no expert in relationship. I also experience
problems with myself and with my partner. Some insecurities,
selfishness, insanity (hahaha!)... and the list goes on and on and on....
CONCEITED: an attitude of self-importance, proud, vain, smug,
high and mighty & stuck-up.
It's a perplexed behavior for me.
I don't exactly remember if i've been conceited--
but maybe (a self-righteous person?)
It's funny how at some point in peoples lives
they become silly or act differently from they were
before. Maybe its because people experience things
the first time (at a matured age- that's a polite one)
while other people had things when they were younger.
Do you know how to react to a person who is sooooo
FEEEEEEELING?
If a person is being reactive to some
"care", that the other person is giving him/her..
does it have another story? Or another meaning?
Or the other person is just being Conceited?
Maybe it's because it's just the first time
that somebody in the opposite sex
was able to show care? Or maybe the so called "care"
is too much? (the other person can't handle it?)
I don't know.. but i think its better to experience things
when you are younger.. so if you come to a matured age-and people
expect you to react maturedly.. you wont be surprise.
You see, every person is different from the other.
Every "care" is different from anothers "care".
And if you're one being Conceited, you're definitely a LOSER.
i Just have to say this-- "Goodluck to your Endeavor. And take your Best Shot!"
Thursday, June 10, 2004
cute quiz....
| E | Earthy |
| D | Dirty |
| E | Emotional |
| Z | Zany |
| T | Timeless |
| H | Helpful |
| E | Explosive |
| R | Rounded |
Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com
sour graping
I don't wanna start a fight...
but its really true that u can only know
a person when you're both living in the same roof.
(This person, i consider one of the closest friend)
I hardly borrow things from her, coz thats not me.
What just i usually borrow is her IRON,
i don't have one- to iron my clothes in the morning.
(Buti na lang i have lots of Wash-&-Wear type of clothes-
those na hindi na kailangang plantsahin)
I only borrow the Iron maybe 2x a week or sometimes not @ all.
But just yesterday.. i need to Iron this blouse ill
be wearing, and i looked for the "plantsa"
and didn't find it anywhere.. and just from that i
knew she doesn't want me to use it (y? she did her ironing this morning, and i saw it!).
That's just fine,
because its hers.. she have all the right not to lend it to me.
kaya lang sobrang obvoius na tinago pa nya sa cabinet nya, so
i could not use it
Ok fine, if that's what she wants, ill BUY MY OWN!" (isasama ko n din pati kabayo!)
why the sudden change of attitude.. she's been complaining to so
many things in her life... she's afraid of taking risks.. i keep
on advising, ang all of a sudden, she don't seem to talk..
i don't know what's wrong w/ her.(now, im sour-graping--- just becoz of the plantsa?)
i don't want to bug into other people's business..
it will be fine though if she consoles w/ me.
I don't want to think about her na.. eto n lng un. finish.
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
June 6
this was suppose to be my yesterdays blog.....
Last Sunday, i celebrated my 28th birthday.
It's not a big day for me though, turning
28... is not even a happy thought. But i could
certainly tell that i've grown-up a lot.
I don't feel like im 28 now, i still feel im just 26.
i never moved from being 26.. when im asked
how young i am (young?), i almost always want
to answer, "I'm 26".
How i celebrated my birthday?
Spent it with mah bf's family
wasn't able to go home because
of the weather. I even spent my
pre-birthday at the office, i had
an Overtime, well, i worked.
I bought cake and chicken and we ate.
The day before my birthday, i treat my cousins
@ Max's.
I received many text messages from friends... greetings!
i really appreciate 'em all!
damn, im so old...
It's not a big day for me though, turning
28... is not even a happy thought. But i could
certainly tell that i've grown-up a lot.
I don't feel like im 28 now, i still feel im just 26.
i never moved from being 26.. when im asked
how young i am (young?), i almost always want
to answer, "I'm 26".
How i celebrated my birthday?
Spent it with mah bf's family
wasn't able to go home because
of the weather. I even spent my
pre-birthday at the office, i had
an Overtime, well, i worked.
I bought cake and chicken and we ate.
The day before my birthday, i treat my cousins
@ Max's.
I received many text messages from friends... greetings!
i really appreciate 'em all!
damn, im so old...
Monday, June 07, 2004
blogger personality
The Daily Grinder
I love blogging because it's like therapy. I can write about anything and everything that happens to me - from the food I ate to what I was doing when I heard the latest 'breaking news'. Being able to communicate with my friends (online and/or real life) through my blog is important to me.
Friday, June 04, 2004
old friend
to someone whom we've lost communication
with? (for such a long time)
I have a friend, Dani,
she (yes, she's a SHE)
has been my friend since first year
college.. but on our third year
she decided to transfer school..
We kinda lost contact due to our busy scheds.
After such a long time, i saw her last year,
w/ a fellow-mapuan at the mall. She first
saw my bf (he arrived earlier @ the meeting place),
which by the way was her classmate in our General
Engineering subject(at that time we still don't
know each other--me & my bf). She approached him
and exhanged his and hellos. When i arrived
i saw them.. and we're like.. "Dani! how are
you?" of course she was surprised to see me and Joseph
together. Syempre chikka to the max kami.
She told me that after graduation
She went back to the U.S. (she's a citizen)
Land a job there, and was just vacationing here.
She asked me if i can be able to sleep at her hotel,
but at that time.. we'll be meeting our colleague.
So i just said that ill drop by.
She left after two days. We again lost contact.
I was surprised, 2 weeks ago, i received
a txt message from her. asking how i was..
and that started it all. We often txt each other
caught up with the things that happenned.
I just feel happy that even if we lost contact
w/ a friend, time makes a way for us to somehow
reunite and see and feel the friendship that has bonded us.
Thursday, June 03, 2004
haircut and diet
t'was d first time i did this thing..
and im so proud! i've been contemplating
to cut it since tuesday.. so did it today.
it's still the long hair im wearing.. nobody
would notice i cut it. i cut 2" off my wet hair
and warlah! alas! this is me now! (pix later)
the last time i went to the salon for my haircut,
i saw how the stylist cut my hair and so i said
if ever there will come a time i want this
style back, i would just be the one to cut it.
and now i want it back... and i cut it.. my way.. hehehe..
i also cut it for a reason... i want to get rid of my
colored hair.. they're the reason why im accumulating
split ends.. becoz they're dry. and so, i don't
have much dry hair anymore.
Last night i went out w/ Tammy, Joyce, Mon, Haydz and Lynette
(after a long time of not going-out).. we went to
Gerrys Grill and i pig-out! the smell of that Crispy Pata
made me want to munch and chomp it with rice at night!
(i'm currently on a diet)... all i want last night was
the Java Kula Mint of Seattles... but we end up eating...
and i mean eating our HEAVY DINNER.
last Wednesday i also nosh-up of the Cinnfully delicious
Cinnamon of "Saint Cinnamon". i feasted for
2 cinnamons (around 7 or 8pm the store has a promo
"buy one take one" of the same kind of their delicious
cinnamon) and hmmmm... i got 2! and ate 'em all. loved it!
what happens to my diet now? *mutter*
Tuesday, June 01, 2004
pied-à-terre
I felt like crying... here comes languor again.
Why do i feel this way. always need to write for the same
old reasons of being unhappy.. being sad, poignant. I'm
so tired of being in this state.
its all my fault. hmmmm...
so much for that...
On the lighter side..
im so happy im alone in the room.. hehehe..
my boss is in the construction site now (but he'll be back tomorrow)
and i can write whatevah i want to.
At least i can do what pleases me to do first in all
my tasks for the day.
I need to finish my estimate for our new
model unit- jasmin- model 80.
I also have to update some construction ledger.
I feel so old.
I dunno what's in my dorm.. but it has this ambiance, sensation
(whatever u want to call it) that makes me sad.
Or maybe becoz.. whenever i arrive, i don't have anybody to
talk to and i don't have any entertainment for
myself in the room. I don't have a tv, but i can listen to
my discman over and over of the same cds most of the time..
i just read.
I'm reading Two Towers of the Lord of the Rings now.
I'm left with nothing to do, except to read and to read.
Its so boooooooring.
But i don't have friends near me to play badminton
on midweek.
In the office most of them wants to go home as soon as
the clock hits 6:30. hmmm... and what more can i say..
they're not that out-going!
I really miss my friends in cemex.. when i was there.. i didn't felt this way.
or maybe i need to catch up with them? set a dinner. or a lunch maybe?
this is my leeway.. to express what's inside me.
after work.. what comes next?
i think i need a new pied-à-terre, a new place to live..
peanut and garlic....
is the smell of garlic annoying?
i was eating peanut with lots and lots
of garlic yesterday. a person entered
the room and asked what was i eating..
and i go.. "im just eating peanut w/
garlic" and she already started to act
as if somebody farted...grrr... are they tantamount?
and ang arte-arte nya
i don't think it really smells bad
coz the garlic doesn't really fill
the air. *sigh*
i already loss my appetite.
i was eating peanut with lots and lots
of garlic yesterday. a person entered
the room and asked what was i eating..
and i go.. "im just eating peanut w/
garlic" and she already started to act
as if somebody farted...grrr... are they tantamount?
and ang arte-arte nya
i don't think it really smells bad
coz the garlic doesn't really fill
the air. *sigh*
i already loss my appetite.
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