some updates... (shall i call it?)

Due to uncertain events in my life..
i was not able to duly update what i need to let my friends know,
things of how ihave been doing...
These uncertain events surely did changed my decisionsin career life..
but God really is guiding me.. leaving my so-now-career was
not part of my plan this year.. but it just happenned..
just like that.. and as it turned out as i said..
it was a BLESSING..A BLESSING IN DISGUISE shall you call it.
And i'm a Property Manager now..
ill be handling some properties in theMetro or maybe in the provincial area.. One of the things i really wanted
to do for the longest time now.
And because of that.. i temporarily somehow left the blogging world..
well not really, because i tried to be updated with what's going on with my friends and somehow tried to exchage his and hellos to them...

Man, i surely missed reading.. and i really missed writting as well.
I'll be updating soon..I just would like to mention this...

Tins whatever you're going through... i know you can pass through that..i miss chatting w/ you.
Tiepee.. i missed reading your blogs.. the smiles that you give me whenever i read things about you..
Ariane.. i also missed your adventures and the liberating feeling when i read your bloG..

YOU GUYS ROCK!

** guys sorry if i have wrong grammar or spelling here... this is impromptu.. not to mention that i have a slow dial-up..

the hole on the big baloon

I dont get it...
Why do people get so affected by other people?
to the point of being uneasy with the situation esp. whenever that person is present.
Is it because they don't jive?
Or they are too much to handle?
Or just maybe they have a strong personality?
And they are being intimidated?

It's rather sad when these people becomes judgemental of another person's doing...
at any given random situation, they will always find a way to be irritated
and say all sorts of things they wanted to say, without even thinking.
On the contrary, the other person seems unaffected!
Isn't it funny to see these people be soooo overly affected by nothing to be affected of? (hahaha! Pity!)
As another Blogger asked.. why are we being drawn to other people's lives?
Why do we always want to know what he/she has done.. mistakes in the past maybe or something
about her/his lovelife now? even her/his career or career move?
Sometimes it's funny, but this is so true and is really happening.
Oh! yesh! And welcome to the real world!

I don't know if im being transparent of my writting now,
but yes... it has something to do with me.


*****
When friends becomes Foes


Someone dear to me is experiencing this battle,
with some people in her environment.
She's just a typical college student
whose got big dreams and will do everything to
achieve them... and this thing happenned..
beacause of her innocence, she didn't know
she's heading for a disaster.

ThEse errrr...so-called friends tolerate her for doing this wrong thing.
Telling her it's fine and it's nothing but normal.. she can't
be abnormal so they say....
They're there for her for every happy moment, she
celebrated with them.. not minding the time.. not minding
the consequences that may fall into her when the time comes..

And the time comes... and all these people surrounding
her were nowhere to be found.. they blatantly.. "LEFT HER".
She's left all alone and without anybody to embrace her, not
anyone to hold her hand.

And then she came to her senses.. she needs to be back on the
right track.
She needs to leave all those problems away,
Trash all the garbage and excess baggage she has on.
She's still on the process... but i know she will be THERE SOON.


Always remember:
A Friend will always say the truth even if it hurts.
A Friend will respect but will not tolerate wrong doing.
A Friend will be there through good times and bad.
A Friend can feel what you feel.
A Friend loves at all times.

Emmy Awards

How's that for arriving at the Emmys?
Though she didn't bag any Award... she's still a winner, with a hottie by her side... wooohoooohooo!
I almost didn't go to work this morning coz i really wanted to see the Emmys via Satelite. Well, i'm not a fan of all those Tv Series.. but i am, with the Comedy area.. esp. SATC and Will & Grace.

I liked Cynthia Nixon's (Miranda) line, when she said..... "I, wow... I have been acting for 25 years, since i was 12, and i hope to act for another 50. But i don't think i would ever have a job like this one (referring to SATC), I MISS IT."--- she won Supporting Actress for, hmmm Comedy Series (got it right).

I was late for the office.
At least i somehow took a look of it.

Resignation

M: Do you know the latest buzz?
Me: Nope i was out yesterday, nasa field ako.
M: Mag-re-resign na daw si Sir R_ _ _ _ e.
Me: Really? Ah, maybe because he'll be leaving the
country na, coz i know he and his family will move
to Canada. Why the Sad Face?
M: Wala lang. Baka kasi till October na lang sya.


I must admit, i felt Sad too though i didn't show it.
I never thought that it would be this early,
it's a bolt from the blue disclosure. *Grimacing*
And also, now, the trepidation is eating me.
He is someone who helped me attain
a somehow peaceful life in the company.
But now that he'll be leaving.. what will happen to me?
What will happen to all our Project for Construction?
How will i be able to talk to Bidders, Contractors, Supplier, etc..
And the most painful partl, how can i be able to talk to the Boss?

We may not have a very good relationship because i
put a wall between us.
The reason being is so i can communicate
with him in a professional way.
He is someone who tries to reach out everybody.
And he is someone who is adored by everyone.
But because of my resentful attitude and sometimes "isip-bata"
he didn'teven bother to be really friends with me and he
instead became in close proximity to other people in the office.
Actually it's much better for me, i don't know,
but i thought that you will not always find the best of
friends you may have in the office... but with this experience,
i think i have proved myself wrong.
And looking back... i actually found Treasured Friends
in the Companies i have worked wih... and those
friends really have kept Open Communication
with me. And they do still care.

I should change some of my ways, i must say. *melancholy*

I wish him all the Best in his Life.. in his Family and Career.

Albeit i may not be able to say it..

Movies, Movies

Chasing Papi!



I watched this Movie last night,and it was so funny!
My roomate got a CD from her officemate and
we were curious about it. At first, the movie sounds like
SATC. But not quite.

Actually it's a Hollywood Cliche' movie but still
the casting and the dialogues made us laugh hard!
Who could resist these 3 lovely ladies of different
personalities and character?

The movie is a get-away-film-from-workstress.
You could actually forget how busy you had become
if you've seen this.
It's a breezy exercise in Latina Lib!






"Chasing Papi is a premarital variant of some movies, with enough jiggle to compete with The Sweetest Thing and Charlie's Angel. The sexy fun begins when well-meaning Latino lover Tomás (Eduardo Verastegui), who is by the way is really sexy, is confronted by the three girlfriends he's been wooing while traveling on business: Miami cocktail waitress Cici (Sofia Vergara)--she's a Sexy Gurl!, New York heiress Patricia (Jaci Velasquez)--The Class one!, and Chicago attorney Lorena (Roselyn Sanchez)-- one HOT, HOT Lady! have discovered Tomás's infidelity, and they're primed for payback. Their romantic revenge involves a contrived subplot of drug money, inept criminals, and an FBI agent (Lisa Vidal), but it's the allied girlfriends who steal this dim-witted fashion show. The female costars are smart, sassy, and incredibly attractive. The Script keeps the comedy on an even, good-natured keel. The laughs are sporadic at best, but Chasing Papi is a bubbly babe-fest that either gender can appreciate, but maybe most girls will"

The movie actually has a Moral Lesson: "We don't really need men to become Who we really want to Be"
*shouts to the woman of our generation*
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the notebook



I watched the Premier of The Notebook last Tuesday
at the Megamall. Got the tickets from my cousin who
cannot see the movie bcoz she has a trip to Bangkok (kainggit!)

The Movie was fine, maybe it's not what i really expected it to be.
I haven't read the book yet.. so i don't know what area they have changed.
But i look forward to reading it.
The movie really is cheesy, but definitely moving.
Specially when Noah was wooing Ally... hmmm.. the best part
of the a booming relationship.. the courting part! awww! kilig to the bones.
I didn't like the ending though maybe that really what has happenned
in the book.

Ryan Gosling, Rachel McAdams makes a credible romantic hero.

"Unapologetic romantic schmaltz (it's Lifetime meets the Hallmark Hall of Fame), "The Notebook" is well worth the risk of diabetic shock for the sake of superb acting that transcends its teary milieu.

Olympics

It's odd when you visit the Olympics 2004 Official Website and inquire of the Games and Medals Standing, and find out that we have not won anything.
I researched through news and news of what's happenin' in the Olympics, not that i am a huge fan of it, not that i'm so into sports, but the thing is i want to know what's been going on with our team, the representative of our country.
All the news channel now has all-ears on the weather, i know it's really important, but should
our Newspaper and Channels also update us with what's happenin in the World of Sport?
Chances are, News channel don't pretty much update us with the Current happening
in the Olympics because they don't want to frustrate us of our Standing.

I have not known this since i visit the Olympics Website:

Men's 200m breaststroker Teofilo Yldefonzo won the Philippines' first Olympic medal when he won bronze in the 1928 Amsterdam Games behind Japanese champion Yoshiyuki Tsuruta.Yldefonzo also won bronze in 1932 in the 200m breaststroke, with Tsuruta again taking gold.The Philippines has won nine Olympic medals in total, but never gold. Its two silver medals were both won by boxers - Anthony Villanueva in 1964 and Mansueto Valesco in 1996.

and check this one out: Participants

Mind you, our last Silver Medal was in the year 1996, what happens in the gap?

Btw, here is the latest standing in the Olympics: Medals

*****

VANILLA SKY

I have watched this movie last year, watched on disk, and i watched it the second time in HBO. I don't know what has gone into me but i really find Tom Cruise So HANDSOME! Yeah, Yeah, i know you will ask me, why only now have i found that out? (maybe i was just focused on Brad Pitt) I just don't know, maybe i don't like him before, i know he's a good actor and all, but in the Vanilla Sky movie, he made me Melt, Awwww! He such a Cutie, an adorable Hottie! He has the most Tantalizing Eyes i ever seen, and why only now have i realized that?

The movie has somewhat a fiction estranged story. But the twist was fine. I don't really liked the Story, but i liked the Casting. I also liked Cameron Diaz's acting. And that thing in Manhattan where Tom Cruise Ran because it stand still... it's eerie... just imagine yourself in that world... i just don't know what one would be thinking.

Now, i really loooove Tom Cruise!



*****

Extra Challenge

I watched Extra Challenge yeasterday night coz i didn't go to to work.
There were 4 teams composed of Marilyn Reynes and his hubby, Aljon Jimenez,
Onyok and his Wife, 2gays- i forgot their name, and my so loved team:
Cynna and Railey---- Hay! Super Sweet ni Railey.
I dunno, i don't really like him before (rolls eyes) but when
i catched yesterday's episode, i think he really loves Chynna, i was so Kilig!
Oh, the Jologs in me!
I liked the part when Chynna needs to go to the Bathroom (ang baduy ko talaa) and Railey
will definitely will be going with her because where one goes the other goes also.
Lam mo yun, Intimate moment yun ni Chynna noh! hahaha! But Railey was there, hehehe..
Basta gusto ko na si Railey ngayon, kahit payatut sya.

I hope i could watch it tonight.

Pieces of Insecurities

My body is ah, what? hmmppfff!

I'm not comfortable anymore.
My b*a size is getting bigger, not that my b**bs are getting big,
but it's because of the fats i have accumulated, my back is getting
bigger thus giving me a hard time wearing my b*a for a long time.
And i need to buy new sets now? Is that the Solution i should do?

Lately, i think i am really gaining lots of weight.
Not that i don't have any control of what i'm eating
(but sometimes... hey! don't we all need some time to
rest from the boring diet every now and then?)
I'm extremely jealous of my sister (no, not the unhealthy jealousy)
coz she apparently already have a four year old son,
she's been married for four years, oh, umm, i think five years already.
And when you look at my sister's bod, you can definitely
not have any clue that she's a mom! Talk about her fast metabolism.
No marks of unwanted fats on obvious areas *sigh*
and when you look at me,the next thing you may be asking
is if im the mom of my nephew, grrr. kaasar.
I love my sister for being that way, and i'm so proud of her coz if she's all that,
i can be all that too, errr...right?

I actually have broad shoulder, that's so fine with me,
but the thing i most hate is: i have Humongous Arms!
And i can't even wear sleeveless blouse, which i love to do!
I'm actually one of those "Judays Body Type" (No-offense to fans).
I mean i don't really look good wearing sleeveless shirt or blouses.
I'm so macho. (ahuhuhuhu..)
What i can always do, is to hide it, damn!
And hope not anyone would discover it. And say, "Wow! Legs!"
(I wish my body is a wonderland- ok, dream on! murmur)

Well, i get most of my insecurities from my arm. I have to Admit.
So i always end up wearing shirts or blouse with sleeves, hmmm..pretty boring.
Forgive my ka-okrayan, i can't help it... it's been a long time coming..
Is there any way to take some inch off my arm?
Is there any regimen?
Is there any special diet specifically for my big arms?
Maybe some exercise?
Or what food should i avoid, are there any?
Ok, just some of my counteless questions... or is it, because of my genes?

My upper body is becoming something-bigger, seems not how it was before.
And now, the more i wanted to diet, the more i would eat.. Sad but really True.

Family Man

I watched "Family Man" last Sunday night. And mind you, i watched it
with Two Men, my Boyfriend and his Kuya.

Actually t'was my second time to watch it, i liked it so it didn't bother me
watching it all over again.
What excites me was, Joseph actually liked it, and so i think did his Kuya.
Because i saw them smile in some parts (hmmm... now i wonder, did the movie made them think to start a family?). Should i just mind my own business... hehehe...

Like what happenned to Jack (Nicholas Cage) i want to have a glimpse of what could be..
What will happen to me in the future or what could happen if i did this... if i decided to take this... and that... and the list goes on and on and on and on... actually it's endless.

(Glimpse of me--- if after graduation i went to the U.S.
1. I'm already married- well i hope so
2. I have two children- a boy and a girl (oh, that was like Jack)
3. I'm a Structural Engineer now
4. I may return once in a while in the Philippines for my relatives and friends
5. I have Joseph as my Loving, Responsible, God-fearing, Faithful Husband

And that's so nice to look at. Or i'd rather call it, a Perfect-Glimpse.
But anyways, im here... i still thank being here coz i wont be the person i am now without the things i went
through, but maybe this is my destiny. God knows when the wheel will turn.
And of course if i'm not here, i'm not sure if i blog-hehehe)

What strucked me in the Movie is, no matter how strong or powerful or famous or smart, successful or wise a person think he is---- he will always and always need someone to be with-- someone to share the joy and happiness he has in his life.
And, we may always not be satisfied with what we already have... but people can actually "envy" the simplest things that we have and do.
And that includes a family.
I wish my bf would want to be a Family Man sooner (wishful thinking and fingers crossed, hehehe)

*****
REDBOX

Me and my dormates went to Redbox last Friday and sure we did had a BLAST!
I sang the song with emotions (hahahaha!)
And i was acting like we were in some cabaret (slang)
The place was cool and i liked the rooms.
Most importantly there are many songs to choose from and some Kewl Music Videos that if you guys want to
Dance-- you certainly can.
But here's one catch, i had a headache later that night... i think it is because of the sound, it echoes
on the wall thus affecting my eardrum and head (ok sa scientific explanation ah?)and so it did some effect on my um, head- or maybe i was just hyper earlier that night- which is a thing i don't do that often (na)...whatever it is...basta i enjoyed my Friday!

Lie

I really hate it when i caught people lying. Boo!
And they adamantly hold on to lying. *sigh*.
Some dim-witted people continue to do this.

Last Friday this person told me she can't go to the party (need to attend a debut)
because something strange happenned to her face.
She told me, it's reddish and its hot.
I apparently got her message, she doesn't want to go with us.
But i didn't respond to her first message and still felt (well, hoped)
she may/will be coming. And so came her 2nd message telling that she can't really go.
And i still didn't respond. Because i don't know but i have this
feeling that she is not telling the truth.
Now you can call me mapag-isip ng masama.

Ok, it's fine if she is anti-social or she prefers to be with some one-on-one gimmick,
but HELLO! We talked about attending the party not the day before
or even that day but 3 days before it.
And can't she not think of a better excuse beside her alibi?
Later that evening (after the party) i got home by 12am, and guess what,
i was 15minutes earlier before her arrival.
And when i looked at her face, it's not even REDDISH!
Not even a single red or even orange thing whatsoever on her face!
Grrrr.... i didn't want to ask her, baka mapahiya lang sya sa akin,
ako pa naman, pag umandar na ko, ewan ko na lang sa kanya.
But you know what, she hold on to telling na its red daw.
Hay naku, huli na nga, deny pa!
She should have told me that she doesn't want to go,
she should have just told me the truth.
It's the least that she can do.

Well, at least for me and some friends, we're able to enjoy the night.
While she-keeps on telling me that she missed it...
AND YES SHE REALLY DID! SHE MISSED THE FUN
and the cool people around! Poor her.

According to Charles Ford people often lie about
things because they're trying to feel better about themselves.

At the other end of the spectrum, a person may lie because
psychologically he cannot acknowledge the truth
even to himself, so bogus stories allow people with
low self-esteem(take note on that) to lie.


Come Saturday, i walked up at around 730am. And i don't know
but i was really hungry so i asked Kate if she wants to
have breakfast at mcdo, and after 5minutes she's there knocking at
our door.
We have seen this "friend" (this is the same girl) dining with
a guy that she's oh well, i don't know, but she's kinda flirting. (gossip)
I was happy for her at least may pagkaka-abalahan sya.
Me and Kate went back to the dorm 30minutes earlier she did, and she
told me that the guy (she had breakfast with) asked her to go
with him to Malate later for some gimmick And i told her to go.

Now it's Sunday, i didn't know what time she arrived bacause
i was really exhausted and needed a long sleep and more rest (Zzzzzz..)
When i asked her what time she arrived, she told me, she arrived 2am.
Oh, well of course i know she went gimmick with the guy
but you know what, that poor girl told me, she didn't go
she told me she just had an Overtime at her office.

And then we chat, i believed her (i was so naive),
but i caught her, she's into telling this story, and then she goes,
"lam mo sa malate kagabi, madaming tao"
(o-0 - rolls eyes, what is it with this girl?
Why does she have to lie?
What is she hiding?
Not that im so interested or so want to know everything.
But I mean, come-on, were not that young anymore to be acting
as if were still teenagers, who doesn't want to be caught with our little crimes?)
And she noticed that i became aware that she is lying,
and she repeated, "sa malate, sa malate"and she's obviously
thinking of another word to say.
Hay naku, she can stop talking now,
because i wont believe the next thing she will say,
i don't know if i'll pity her but i'm starting to hate her.

Crybaby

Tuesdays with Morrie was Emotional, a tear jerker, i was a Crybaby.

The book has full of lessons,
Lessons in love.
Life.
Career.
Relationship.
Friends.
Family, and so much more.

Oh well, i finished reading it yesterday.
I need to have another book now.
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We'll be having an affair tonight for the Office.
And i still don't have anything to wear.
We have to wear something formal
but i can always go back to Basic Business Attire, right?
Would it be fine if i still wear the same business attire i am wearing now to the party tonight?
I must see.
*****
Why do i always have so many things in mind to write when im not in front of my PC?
And when its about time for me to write, i can't think of all those thoughts i have (before i started)? damn.
Is this just a sign of aging? hmmm... i wonder...
Most of the time now, i have senseless writting.
Most are just focus on me, why can't post something interesting?
Something happenin' in the world?
But will i attract people to read my blog if i do that? (do i have to do that, just to attract people?)
Ahhh, i think i just have to be me.
But i think i have to write things with sense.
I hope someday, i will.
*****
I don't want to talk with Joseph.
He attended this birthday party last night.
I don't want him to go, but i still said its up to him.
You know guys, of course he went.
He just told me that he will visit me @ my dorm because he'll be leaving early.
But you know what... he didn't... guys.. guys..guys KAINIS...GRRRRRRR!
And now, he texted me this morning, saying, I'm sorry
Bahala sya! Besides i have my party tonight, i don't need to think of him!

Book Review

Caution:

Da vinci Code Teaser
(ok, ok.. if you still haven't read the book, but has plans of reading.. then.. don't read this)
 

Captain Bezu Fache carried himself like an angry ox with his wide shoulders thrown back and his chin tucked hard into his chest. His dark hair was slicked back with oil, accentuating an arrow-like widow's peak that divided his jutting brow and preceded him like the prow of the battleship. As he advanced, his dark eyes seemed to scorch the earth before him, radiating a fiery clarity that forecast his reputation for unbliking severity in all matters.  (Got this part from the book, look how Dan Brown can awaken oursenses to read, how he described a person, surely caught my imagination)
 
Finished the book yesterday morning.Once you get hold of that book, you can't possiblylet go of it. And i would like to share a thought or two...

Robert Langdon- genius, one desirable man

Sophie- one desirable lady
Sauniere- full of secrets

Fache- strong personality

Collet- good employee

Leigh- liar

Aringarosa- easily deceived

Silas- Obedient and clueless

 

As i was about to start the book, a lot of my

friends (who saw i would be reading it) told me that

it would waver my "FAITH" but as soon as they told me

that.. i was the more eager to read it. I must know why, right?

 

But yes, there was this part in the book that i can't

accept. Actually, i stopped reading it for a day.

Because i can't swallow it, i couldn't possibly read

something so out of my belief. (Do i need to elaborate? oh, well,

i choose not to. I must suggest, you better read it.)

But i decided to finish it. And i still have my BELIEFS.

 

The story is really good and the Author is Awesome!

 

I recommend it!

 

My rating:

Five- Star!

 

I'm looking forward for a blockbuster film of the Da Vinci Code!

 So i'm down to another book now (see left side)

shitty people

Fuck!
'tang-ina talaga yung babaeng yun! leche sya, kung madami syang request sa engineering, maghintay sya! hindi lang sya ang inaasikaso ko! palibhasa matandang dalaga! she should GET A LIFE! 'k-bwusit!

Achy Breaky Heart, Highschool, Blogging, and Relationship

Last night, a puppy broke my heart.
We're passing Guadalupe when i saw a thing lying beside a garden
at first i thought t'was a cat. So i decided to second-look it, and i saw, it was a puppy. (shakes head)
I want to get it from that place, but i can't, i don't know if somebody owns it, but if somebody owns it,
why does it have to be outside of the house. tsk.. tsk..
Mind you, its raining Yesterday night. Im sure the puppy is wet.
I want to keep the puppy, but what can i do? I'm so broken hearted.
I can't even get the puppy coz if i get it, where will he/she lives?
I'm just renting, and pets are not allowed. I'm stil sad about it.
*****
Me & Joseph just spent a quality time together. We talked.
We were really engrossed in our conversation about our being highschool.
He's so funny, coz he told me 'bout his being naughty at school,
where they would jump on the floors and make their teachers cry, sa sobrang inis sa kanila
Glad he enjoyed his Highschool life, as for me, medyo "patay na bata" me nuon.
I enjoyed College though..
Ahhh... so much about school...
*****
It's really nice to read Blogs from different people. They're so interesting!
I read this Blog one time (i forgot the site's name though)
The Author wrote, she likes blogging and she thinks people who blog
are those people who wants to learn more.. they keep themselves
updated with so many things.

I think people who blog are those who can't stand being Idle.
And i agree, people who blog are those who continously wants to learn.
It's Like SPEAKING THE SAME LANGUAGE
*****
My Cousin, wants to win back the love of his life..
Remember my cousin who decided not to marry his long time GF?
Well, now, after the "Magulong Stage"of his life, he wants to win her back.
And we will help him. It was the first time i saw Laarni, maganda pala sya.
And she really looks kind. I arranged a bouquet of Antorium and Roses
(does that mean, i could become a florist?) for my Cousin's gift.
Without any hesitation, Laarni accepted it.
It's really nice to see two people talk again.
I hope they could patch things sooner. (fingers crossed)
*****
Joseph will be leaving for a Property Inspection in Iloilo tomorrow.
He'll be there till Saturday Morning... and Moi, will be left here in the City.
I will surely miss him.

stereotyped jologs

Last Friday Ruffa Guttierez visited our office.. she is.. again.. a friend of our CEO. I just knew they had lunch at the Shangrila and proceeded to our office right after. I really was eager to see her, and after finding out she will visit the office, i was extremely excited. Oh, well call me jologs, but i love seeing beautiful people and that includes a lot of celebrities. I doesn't matter if im called one... to hell with those who pigeonhole me.

Like this officemate, after a picture with Ruffa, she asked me, "ganun ka ba talaga kahilig sa artista at nagpa-picture ka pa sa kanya sa office ni EDC (our CEO)?" Let me tell you the whole story about our picture:
Ruffa came.. she's inside the CEO's room, i need to give a paper to accounting which happens to be near the CEO's office.. and the lucky me passed the area with my cellphone in my pocket (i usually bring it with me). I heard Charlene (which is btw, our CEO's daughter) asked for a camera, and i just said, "here, i have a camera", knowing that Charlene will just take a photo of Ruffa alone. But she asked me to go inside and have a picture with Ruffa. So i posed beside her. And was happy, because i was the only one who has a picture beside her.

And that's the story. It's just so annoying for some people to label, even though she didn't used the word jologs or something, i still did get what she wanted to say. Bakit kaya, hindi sya magpakatotoo? When we had a group picture with Ruffa, she also included herself with that... And that only means one thing... JOLOGS din sya! Plastic! Hypocrite!
Also another Officemate said, "Buti hindi nahihiya ang bf mo sa yo?" That's when i told him, i asked Joseph to download the pix through bloothooth coz i don't have here. You know what, he's an as***le! He is my bf bakit nya ako ikakahihiya? masama bang magpa-picture sa isang artista, and to think hindi naman ako yung tipong nag-kakagulo over a famous star? It's just that natawag lang ako, and i was just happy, yun lang! Maybe inggit lang sila!

Oh, ayan!

Mamatay na lang sila sa Inggit!

if only im in hollywood

You are going to Marry Josh Hartnett. He is really
shy, but don't let that fool you. He is really
outgoing and sweet with those he loves and will
be loyal to them for the rest of his life.
Congrats!!


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what a catch! he really is a dream boy!

of Tennis

Have you watched last Saturday's (July 3) Wimbledon Finals?
Man, that was one helluva game.
T'was the first time i saw S. williams defeated
(am not really a tennis rocker). I even couldn't
believe my eyes that she was indeed defeated by
a Seventeen year old Bomb!

It was Russia's Maria Sharapova who won the Wimbledon crown, defeating Serena Williams 61 64. In her first Grand Slam final, Sharapova walked away with her fourth singles title and first Grand Slam singles title. She was making only her second appearance at the Wimbledon Championships, having reached the fourth round in her debut last year.




This 17 Year old Athlete is something, not just another pretty face.

She said, she's sorry she just have to Steal and Keep the Title from Williams for a Year.

The New Princess of Wimbledon.

Temper

I'm having such a short temper on people now.
May it be in the office or in the dorm.
I'm easily aggravated, maybe its PMS.

Nakakainis sa dorm kasi may oras in taking a
bath.. 2 of my roomates go to the office @ 8am, I, on the other hand needs to be in the office by 8:30 o'clock am, and another one
@ 9am. kaya lang minsan may mga sumisingit sa T&B when its my turn
to take a bath, hassle to wait, not to mention, i will
be late, di ba? Why can't they just follow kung ano na yun
dating time of taking a bath? bakit kailangan magbago, when you know
other people will be using it.. nakakairita, parang nananadya!
(ang laki ng problema ko noh?).*sigh*

Another thing here in the Office, kasi, i received a cheque,
a Payment for my Overtime, hindi naman sya malaking halaga or anything
sandali lang naman yun overtime. But when i looked @ the
Cheque, mali ang spelling ng pangalan ko---Kulang ng "S".
I told the Treasury personnel na mali yung name, so they need to change it.
The person handling the Making of Cheque asked me, "na-try mo na
ba yan? Pumunta ka na ba sa bangko kung hindi nila tatanggapin yan?"
HELLO! Do i still need to go to the bank and be busted, and go back to the
office with the same cheque again, eh di nagsayang lang ako ng time and pagod ko?
Since nalaman ko na dito sa office pa lang na may mali, di ba
tama lang na p-correct ko na today, to avoid any hassles of going there
and wasting my time. And from her answer to me, she's insisting
na pumunta muna ako, baka makalusot, Hello! madami din kaya akong
ginagawa sa office noh! At kung pinagbubuti ba nya ang trabaho nya, hindi
siguro sya magkakamali! nakalagay naman sa voucher that my name is with
an "S". hay naku, ok lang naman magkamali kasi we really do sometimes
make mistakes, kung sana ba natawa na lang sya at sinabi na lang na "sige,
babaguhin ko na lng.." di ba mas ok pa yun?
So i answered her back, "don't make me go there with a wrong info on the
cheque.. waste of time lang yan, baguhin mo na lang."
Rude na kung rude, basta gawin nya trabaho nya! Kainis, Lulusot pa!

Eto pa blogspot ko, i had published the same blog about 10x ata yesterday, kaasar! ang daming buburahin!

One more thing, i just called joseph and told him na nasa office na ko (i was supposed to text him kaya lang drain ako) And he answered something- i forgot na, nairita uli ako, para kasing mataas ang tono, hmp! sabi ko, "sige na, nasa office na ko!" sabay baba ng fon!

On road accidents and violence

Only in the philippines.......

1. Can you find Automobiles that don't stop
while pedestrians need to cross the pedestrian lane.

2. Pedestrian don't cross the pedestrian lane but insist
on crossing where their lives can be in danger.

3. Drivers don't usually move in slower motion during an orange
traffic light, but still make a way to cross the junction before it hits red.

4. People are not afraid to beat the red light esp. @ night.

5. People can drive even without a shirt on top.

6. It's easy to pick up a fight when somebody has overtaken them.

7. Where the "DISTANCIA AMIGO" board doesn't count. (Dupang ba?)

8. Where it is fine not to keep on the right lane (i.e. Buses should
keep right but always on the left side) tsk..tsk..

9. Drivers don't care if their light is not appropriate- too bright for the eye of the auto opposite them.

10. It is fine to fire a gun at someone they thought had offended them (while on the road).

Sad but true.
These things happen, in our roads now.
I just wonder, why does the government give license to those irresponsible drivers and individuals? Doesn't they suppose to take Exams first and also Drug tests?
Why is so hard to discipline people.
I know it all starts from "us".
Doesn't it also start in the families? at school?
Sometimes i thought...parang ang hirap na nating baguhin, parang buluk na bulok na.

(I recently had a bad experience on the road.. made me nervous, but am glad people cooled down.. a thing people should always carry while driving.)

When can we be like Singapore? It is just a small City but look how far they got?
How amazingly their economy is growing.

We Filipinos are not just what we can be right now.. but we can do a lot more better than our
neighbors.
But if in this simple thing.. like our roads.. we can't make a difference.. then how will the whole
country be of any difference from the rest of the world?
I would no longer be surprised if in this year, a lot of people will think of migrating abroad or think
of working somewhere out of the country. We're so in this liquifaction now that... it's hard for us
to stand up again.. And we relent from being this way.

But i still have this hope... that someday we still can be one of those successful nations.

excess baggage

I don't know, but i seem to to always live/dwell on the past.
I can't move from that chaos, dark side of my life.
It has been 3 years.. but the pain is still here.
It really hurts.

the stupidity and the overly sensitive me...just lingers..

I just found another thing, he really did lie.

I'm not sure if the whole intuition is real.
A part of it maybe.

If he lied.. why?
Does it mean that he needs to protect the relationship
so as not to break it? Because i'm so over reacting?

Maybe i'm just really over-reacting. Talk about insecurities.
I know, i do...
But because he only let me see the good side of him..

And after five (5) years.. then i saw.. he also too has
his dark side.
Well because he's also a human, but it really hurts
to be disappointed.. esp when u highly trust someone.

But on the other end.. i also have my fair share
of disappointments.. sad moments that he can also
point to me.

this is the extreme sadness couple experience in their
relationship. The sad part for me is i can't
forget it. I can't seem to move from it.
I can't seem to bring back the trust.

I don't want to exxagerate this..
I still am not sure if they relly liked each
other. All i know is that the girl flirted him

You know, my guy.. is really a gentleman..
He never made suplado on the girl.
Maybe he did liked her.. because at that time..
i really was a nagger... im was really annoying.
Whenever i ask him, he's so consistent w/ his answers..
or may be he's a PRO. (but i am his first gf)..
But does that give him the right to, oh well,
make friends (did the girl made the 1st move?)
with her or even be close to her?

Naiinis na din ako sa sarili ko, why can't i forget it?
Why can't be forgiving? may mga kasalanan din naman ako?
Selfish ba ako?
why can't i move from it, and live my life for the future?
Maybe i need to tell it to him again.....

paint

I also consider painting as a therapy

My best Steal and Splurge!

Like to share some stuffs.
Here is my Version of my Steal Vs. Splurge


STEAL VS. SPLURGE




Chikka helps me to save. I have installed Chikka in my PC @ home and here in the Office. I'm able to save.. i'm a Pre-paid user, and my 300 Peso Load can last for a month! I Splurge for a 6600- a Birthday Present for mahself
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HAIR REBOND

St. Ives Mud can make my Hair Deeply Conditioned, it's really a STEAL! If i really want to look fabulous... i ran to the salon for a Hair Rebond (sometimes really costly- for longer hair like mine)
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I love reading both!
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My Silver Bangle from Baguio and Charriol Bracelet
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hmmmm... both sarap.
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You guys Rock!

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I know some stuffs are not a splurge to some... but to me.. my steals are worth the steal! *mwuah*

PAOMNNEHAL PWEOR OF THE HMUAN MNID

cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd
waht I was rdgnieg THE
PAOMNNEHAL PWEOR OF THE HMUAN MNID

Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy,
it deosn't mttaer in
waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny
iprmoatnt tihng is taht the
frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The
rset can be a taotl mses
and you can sitll raed it wouthit porbelm. Tihs is
bcuseae the huamn mnid
deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod
as a wlohe



Pertty srtagne eh?? Hvae a gerat day!!


so galing noh?

what to wear

I would want to wear something like this @ the wedding.. would it be appropriate?...hmmm i think so..

Geezzz... i hope i have this body......

Reunion

I want to have my own house now.
Somewhere i can live, own a dog and
love it! Where i could spend my quality
time with myself. Have peace of mind.
Something that i can call my own..
Something i can call "MY HOME"

***

I can get so lethargic in the morning.
It's always hard to wake up.
I keep on Setting my alarm at 6:30am,
but leaving the bed at 7:15am.
Always telling, "15 minutes more.."
and then..again.. "15 minutes more.."
and another 15 minutes.
Seldom do i really wake up at the time
i set..

***

I'll be gone for the weekend.
Me and my family will be going to Pangasinan.
We'll be attending a 50th Wedding Anniversary
of some relatives (i hardly knew). And this will
become some sort of Reunion for the
ARCIAGA clan. Finally, i'll be meeting them!
I just wonder, will i ever get to understand them?
It's because whenever some relatives come and visit us,
they always talk Ilokano and i don't speak
the dialect, we were not taught.

But what excites me is, after the Wedding, we'll
be going to Baguio, my Tatay said, we have a
relative who owns a house there ( i wish i could own a house there too!)
and then it will be Ukay-ukay time!

what i really don't like is...........
i have this very annoying pimple on my nose!
sobrang nakakainis! sana na lang mawala na sya by
Saturday, kakahiya naman noh!
Should i go to the derma tonight? And have my pimple prick?
Would in not be too late? *moan*
bahala na mamaya

Annoyed

Minsan nakakainis noh? Bakit may mga tao na pag
tinanong mo ng maayos.. nakaasak agad sumagot?
(NAKAASAK=PABALANG, PA-GALIT)
*sigh* Pero maybe ganun talaga sila?...
Kailangan mo n lang intindihin.Kaya lng nakakainis talaga.
I just wonder, may mga tao nga ba talaga na nakakatiis
na makasama sila ng matagal?
I guess, wala... for a time siguro magkakaron,
then mawawala din. Pero one really needs patience
in communicating with them, pambihira, ang hirap
talaga intindihin!
I just hope those kind of people would really realize
that they're being annoying. And these people still
ask the question.. why they still haven't met a partner
for their lives...hmmm.. and they still wonder? huh?
(pakibaba nga ang isa kong KILAY!)
hay naku..................

Usher and A. Keys

I heard they're going to have a duet. The title would be "My Boo". I'm so excited for Confessions II

some attitude

Life can be so simple.
One needs to do what he ought to do, or at least
stick to what he do best.

Im no expert in relationship. I also experience
problems with myself and with my partner. Some insecurities,
selfishness, insanity (hahaha!)... and the list goes on and on and on....

CONCEITED: an attitude of self-importance, proud, vain, smug,
high and mighty & stuck-up.
It's a perplexed behavior for me.
I don't exactly remember if i've been conceited--
but maybe (a self-righteous person?)

It's funny how at some point in peoples lives
they become silly or act differently from they were
before. Maybe its because people experience things
the first time (at a matured age- that's a polite one)
while other people had things when they were younger.

Do you know how to react to a person who is sooooo
FEEEEEEELING?

If a person is being reactive to some
"care", that the other person is giving him/her..
does it have another story? Or another meaning?
Or the other person is just being Conceited?
Maybe it's because it's just the first time
that somebody in the opposite sex
was able to show care? Or maybe the so called "care"
is too much? (the other person can't handle it?)

I don't know.. but i think its better to experience things
when you are younger.. so if you come to a matured age-and people
expect you to react maturedly.. you wont be surprise.
You see, every person is different from the other.
Every "care" is different from anothers "care".
And if you're one being Conceited, you're definitely a LOSER.
i Just have to say this-- "Goodluck to your Endeavor. And take your Best Shot!"

cute quiz....

this one somehow lightened my mood....

E	Earthy
D	Dirty
E	Emotional
Z	Zany
T	Timeless
H	Helpful
E	Explosive
R	Rounded

Name / Username:

Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com

sour graping

Why can someone be so madamot?
I don't wanna start a fight...
but its really true that u can only know
a person when you're both living in the same roof.
(This person, i consider one of the closest friend)
I hardly borrow things from her, coz thats not me.
What just i usually borrow is her IRON,
i don't have one- to iron my clothes in the morning.
(Buti na lang i have lots of Wash-&-Wear type of clothes-
those na hindi na kailangang plantsahin)
I only borrow the Iron maybe 2x a week or sometimes not @ all.
But just yesterday.. i need to Iron this blouse ill
be wearing, and i looked for the "plantsa"
and didn't find it anywhere.. and just from that i
knew she doesn't want me to use it (y? she did her ironing this morning, and i saw it!).
That's just fine,
because its hers.. she have all the right not to lend it to me.
kaya lang sobrang obvoius na tinago pa nya sa cabinet nya, so
i could not use it
Ok fine, if that's what she wants, ill BUY MY OWN!" (isasama ko n din pati kabayo!)

why the sudden change of attitude.. she's been complaining to so
many things in her life... she's afraid of taking risks.. i keep
on advising, ang all of a sudden, she don't seem to talk..
i don't know what's wrong w/ her.(now, im sour-graping--- just becoz of the plantsa?)
i don't want to bug into other people's business..
it will be fine though if she consoles w/ me.

I don't want to think about her na.. eto n lng un. finish.

my treat!

@ Max's Mega--- mah treat...


Me & Joseph


Sis and Mat-mat


Dang & Vina


the Sacramentos

June 6

this was suppose to be my yesterdays blog.....

Last Sunday, i celebrated my 28th birthday.
It's not a big day for me though, turning
28... is not even a happy thought. But i could
certainly tell that i've grown-up a lot.
I don't feel like im 28 now, i still feel im just 26.
i never moved from being 26.. when im asked
how young i am (young?), i almost always want
to answer, "I'm 26".

How i celebrated my birthday?
Spent it with mah bf's family
wasn't able to go home because
of the weather. I even spent my
pre-birthday at the office, i had
an Overtime, well, i worked.
I bought cake and chicken and we ate.
The day before my birthday, i treat my cousins
@ Max's.

I received many text messages from friends... greetings!
i really appreciate 'em all!


damn, im so old...

blogger personality

thanks to Leng!

I took the Blogging Personality Quiz at About Web logs and I am...

The Daily Grinder
I love blogging because it's like therapy. I can write about anything and everything that happens to me - from the food I ate to what I was doing when I heard the latest 'breaking news'. Being able to communicate with my friends (online and/or real life) through my blog is important to me.

old friend

Isn't it nice to talk (again)
to someone whom we've lost communication
with? (for such a long time)
I have a friend, Dani,
she (yes, she's a SHE)
has been my friend since first year
college.. but on our third year
she decided to transfer school..
We kinda lost contact due to our busy scheds.
After such a long time, i saw her last year,
w/ a fellow-mapuan at the mall. She first
saw my bf (he arrived earlier @ the meeting place),
which by the way was her classmate in our General
Engineering subject(at that time we still don't
know each other--me & my bf). She approached him
and exhanged his and hellos. When i arrived
i saw them.. and we're like.. "Dani! how are
you?" of course she was surprised to see me and Joseph
together. Syempre chikka to the max kami.
She told me that after graduation
She went back to the U.S. (she's a citizen)
Land a job there, and was just vacationing here.
She asked me if i can be able to sleep at her hotel,
but at that time.. we'll be meeting our colleague.
So i just said that ill drop by.
She left after two days. We again lost contact.
I was surprised, 2 weeks ago, i received
a txt message from her. asking how i was..
and that started it all. We often txt each other
caught up with the things that happenned.
I just feel happy that even if we lost contact
w/ a friend, time makes a way for us to somehow
reunite and see and feel the friendship that has bonded us.

haircut and diet

i chisel(ed) my hair this morning and mind u, WITH STYLE!
t'was d first time i did this thing..
and im so proud! i've been contemplating
to cut it since tuesday.. so did it today.
it's still the long hair im wearing.. nobody
would notice i cut it. i cut 2" off my wet hair
and warlah! alas! this is me now! (pix later)
the last time i went to the salon for my haircut,
i saw how the stylist cut my hair and so i said
if ever there will come a time i want this
style back, i would just be the one to cut it.
and now i want it back... and i cut it.. my way.. hehehe..
i also cut it for a reason... i want to get rid of my
colored hair.. they're the reason why im accumulating
split ends.. becoz they're dry. and so, i don't
have much dry hair anymore.

Last night i went out w/ Tammy, Joyce, Mon, Haydz and Lynette
(after a long time of not going-out).. we went to
Gerrys Grill and i pig-out! the smell of that Crispy Pata
made me want to munch and chomp it with rice at night!
(i'm currently on a diet)... all i want last night was
the Java Kula Mint of Seattles... but we end up eating...
and i mean eating our HEAVY DINNER.

last Wednesday i also nosh-up of the Cinnfully delicious
Cinnamon of "Saint Cinnamon". i feasted for
2 cinnamons (around 7 or 8pm the store has a promo
"buy one take one" of the same kind of their delicious
cinnamon) and hmmmm... i got 2! and ate 'em all. loved it!

what happens to my diet now? *mutter*

pied-à-terre

I unequivocally want to write yesterday night.
I felt like crying... here comes languor again.
Why do i feel this way. always need to write for the same
old reasons of being unhappy.. being sad, poignant. I'm
so tired of being in this state.
its all my fault. hmmmm...
so much for that...

On the lighter side..
im so happy im alone in the room.. hehehe..
my boss is in the construction site now (but he'll be back tomorrow)
and i can write whatevah i want to.
At least i can do what pleases me to do first in all
my tasks for the day.
I need to finish my estimate for our new
model unit- jasmin- model 80.
I also have to update some construction ledger.

I feel so old.

I dunno what's in my dorm.. but it has this ambiance, sensation
(whatever u want to call it) that makes me sad.
Or maybe becoz.. whenever i arrive, i don't have anybody to
talk to and i don't have any entertainment for
myself in the room. I don't have a tv, but i can listen to
my discman over and over of the same cds most of the time..
i just read.
I'm reading Two Towers of the Lord of the Rings now.
I'm left with nothing to do, except to read and to read.
Its so boooooooring.
But i don't have friends near me to play badminton
on midweek.
In the office most of them wants to go home as soon as
the clock hits 6:30. hmmm... and what more can i say..
they're not that out-going!

I really miss my friends in cemex.. when i was there.. i didn't felt this way.
or maybe i need to catch up with them? set a dinner. or a lunch maybe?

this is my leeway.. to express what's inside me.
after work.. what comes next?

i think i need a new pied-à-terre, a new place to live..

peanut and garlic....

is the smell of garlic annoying?
i was eating peanut with lots and lots
of garlic yesterday. a person entered
the room and asked what was i eating..
and i go.. "im just eating peanut w/
garlic" and she already started to act
as if somebody farted...grrr... are they tantamount?
and ang arte-arte nya
i don't think it really smells bad
coz the garlic doesn't really fill
the air. *sigh*
i already loss my appetite.

in an internet cafe

have nothing to do this sunday. finished my laundry and other stuff. btw i finished reading Memoirs of a Geisha last week. i liked it so much that even if i sleep at 1am, i did.
the book reminds me of my mother. she used to tell me, when she was pregnant with me, she used to look at a maniquin (rightspelling?) of a geisha. she told me, that's why my eyes where some kind of chinita. i also have brown eyes, not the usual brown that u see amongst us (filipinos) its a light-brown, got it from my tatay. just like nicho... sayuri who has a different eye color (feeling, huh?)

anyways i also look forward to reading da vinci code... maybe i'll be buying that today, just maybe.

i went to the mall yesterday, metmy mom, my sis and some cousins, of course they went there to but stuffs for school, and where did we head, of course National Bookstore... well masikip talaga sa loob ng bookstore but i enjoyed it anyway.

i hope to buy a new pair of shoes for my nanay, kaya lang wala syang na-type-an eh next time na lang siguro.

my bf and i planned to buy new cell phone... but am not really sure if we're going to push it since we're kinda saving well we need to basta bahala na

did i get the vacation and the time i need to be far away?
nah, i didn't.... but ill be having it sooner

i'm a bit fine now... i just don't know what's gotten to me... feeling of emptiness? anxiety?.. bored... is it midlife crisis? not sure...

the answer to everything?

PRAYER

it works!

usher

ireallylovethisguy.... i know he's not that guapo or anything but he has this certain animalistic appeal. i must say i have been an avid fun. i like the way he moves. have u seen the naughty girl video of Beyonce Knowles? oooooohhhh he's so addicting i can't seem to get my eyes off him, hehehe... i like the way he touch his pants and move to dance... sexy, hahahaha!

Popularity

got this from a forwarded message....

just look how people can be popular... they just have to get somewhere to start...








sometimes its funny... but who knows whats gonna happen... everybody gets their chance... its a matter of stepping a foot forward..

trusting........

what does TRUST means?

it means u don't think the other person will cheat on u.
it means u never thought of him looking for other girls.
it means he doensn't have any nasty or shall i say unkind secret to keep.
it means his eyes are locked on u (u know that)
it means he never had flirted with anyone...
he is satisfied that u are the One.

it so sad and frightening when trust is broken.
i could not think of a better way to excuse myself to not feel jealous
when i think of something he might do or feel towards the opposite sex.
there are lots of vampires out there.. waiting to lurk at
the blood of another so called victim.

in a way its someone's fault why someone would end up paranoid
or maybe its just the person himself/herself not controlling his/her
emotions. the reasons may be boundless.. regardless of what it may seem.

the reason about is not that u don't trust him/her or something...
its just of what happenned, well, or what could happen...
maybe its because when a couple had been together for quite a long
time...there's this so called familiarity... there's a saying that
goes... "Familiarity brings Contempt" well, i must agree. (i remember tinababes' blog bout this) i don't really recommend a long engagement, though im into one.

i must admit i do usually sometimes feel bored.. not that i don't
love him... but because things are done monotomously... u want to
see and have more... i don't know with other people... but this is just
how i feel.

maybe im also boring.

i have this one time conversation with a friend who has been going out
with her long time bf. we kinda talked how they spend monthsaries,
anniversaries, birthday...etc.. she told me that they, once in a while
go out of the town and spend time together which in my case... never happenned (just for the two of us alone together)

i maybe outpouring emotions and thoughts this past few days. but im happy at least i have the time somehow to think about things. but what i really need now (i think) is a time and place to unwind.. with Just ME, MYSELF AND I.

I don't want to be selfish... but everybody needs a little time away.. (sounds like a song) hope i could have that time..

movies....

i would love to watch TROY







and most of all, i cant wait to see SHREK!

alone

im extremely sad

1. I want to disappear
2. I want to be someone i'm not
3. I want to be stronger
4. I want to live a new life
5. I want to die (sound insane, huh?)--well just for a moment..
6. I want to escape
7. I want to have a vacation
8. basta madami pa......

blogger like matrix?

hmmmm wazup with blogger? what's next, revolution? hmmm.. still can't say if i like it... im pretty much so used w/ the old one...

i want to transfer to xanga. im already thinking about it. i even cant view my blogs here.. im so pissed w/ our isp.. had a firewall for blogger and some other sites i used to check out.. even my tag-board..

my head aches, maybe becoz i got up early coz i was in tanay (i need to be in Makati by 7am), i went home for the election. i still have my indelible ink on my finger.. a proof i used my right to vote

i heard from my officemate that Amber won the Survivor-All star! whew! i knew it! i just knew it! i know she will win it--- the Ultimate Sole Survivor for the All-Star Series.. she's really pretty smart in that game (not to mention-wicked... hehe..joke--for Amber fans), not like the other one.. when she did the Australian Outback.. i wasn't able to see the Finale Show, coz yesterday.. i replayed MG1 over the VCD. i kinda miss the F4 now.. there's no more F4 mania.. so i went go-gaga myself, hehe.. i miss Dao so much.. i miss being kilig while watching.. sayang nga lang nde ko napanuod ang finale ng survivor I also found out the Rob proposed on the set for Marrying Amber-- well that is one helluva kilg thing huh?

i wonder who's winning in the Presedentiables now?

face turned to neck paint

a Sunday after last Sunday

i was in the Buyer's day on one of the Properties we market



i was assigned in the food committee... this is our lunch time, around 2pm.


had my neck paint (was suppose to be a face paint)

i asked for a "nemo" character but unfortunately the painter didn't know who nemo was... sad she doesn't watch cartoon... what kind of painter is that?
so everybody's teasing...i have a "bisugo" on my neck.. becoz its not even close to Nemo.. (rolled eyes..)
i erased the neck paint after my solo pic.


i had a solo pic too! i am so fat! kaasar!

mahangin b s labas?

someone must've stepped on some shit... eeewwww smells bad downstairs... on my way after buying lunch...nasty..
its windy outside.. if only i weigh 110lb. then i would probably be blown by the wind.. and whatta mess, just take a look @ my hair.. haha! i looked like the ad for a shampoo.. hehe..
ill be eating mcdo burger and fries for this lunch. don't have the appetite.. but i feel the need to eat.. otherwise i could sabotage my health... i have not been eating a lot lately.. im so in to my dieting...and i hope i could get good result.. (eating mcdo..lol!)
its not so happy eating alone..
but i have to get use to it..

itch

a beleaguer feeling im having now for this damn isp! plus i don't want to work too! im not feeling good now..
This is a peculiar feeling, just because my bestfriend in the Office officially resigned i would be lonely.. will not come in the office on time.. i really kinda miss her.. our snack in the am and pm... *sigh*
i had a blast last week though.. t'was also hectic.. accompanied my cousin last Thursday for a Model Search.. i was absent in the office to do her make-up.. and i was like... huh...im a make-up artist now.. i do make-up for her.. painting her face.. i can't say that i do good make-up.. but it makes me feel good that at least even though i don't usually wear make-up, i still can make people look good.. with some brush strokes and some stuffs..
Another thing, i didn't know that Holiday Inn already moved to the (before) Galleria Suites.. my cousin's contest was said to be @ the Holiday Inn and we thought it's in Manila.. but now it is already the Manila Pavillion. So we head to the Galleria in Pasig.. hmmm.. we're kinda late for the registration.. not enough to do her make-up.. and yes i painted her face in the car.. with all the humps.. the moving.. manuever and all.. i got a good finish with her i could say... but i really wish we didn't rush.. becoz we still arrived 20 minutes earlier before the time.. if we just didn't rush.. i could have given more attention (make-up) her eyes.

its not our MIS

it's the damn...fu@#ng.. sh*t internet service provider........ when i get home in Tanay, that'll be the only time i can read blogs... i cant even read mine... grrrr... its gettin' into my nerves...... i can't do anything about it....

grrrrrrrrrrrrr

i think i got busted! dunno if our MIS put a firewall to blogspot. how now can i read my friends blogs? grrrrrrrrrr.... and now i am so eager and can't wait to read how they are doing... stupid... stupid....
maybe i am just wasting my time to blog... but i have the need, the feel to read, to write what's going on......grrrr....... ill talk to him, maybe he can allow me to read and post blogs... im sure i can post but i want to read too! this is awful and unpleasant, sad too.......

another side of depression

"It has been a year of career bliss."

I have learned to value Maturity.

"I believe it is dedication to common purposes, a willingness to grow and learn, faith and courage in difficult situations and adaptability.

Depression has its good side too..

It taught me to know myself well..

"It implies focused attention and hard work. I must admit that the past year has molded and matured me. Life go through many phases. Ironically, it is often the most difficult situations that serve to strengthen a person's ability (my ability). In my case, my being in Engineering School and all the quirks that go with it has moved me from a Carefree person to a deeper, fuller commited individual. I am looking forward to a year ahead, a fruitful one.

winning a contest

Have i mentioned i won an MTV Asia Awards 2004 Contest?
Yes, I did! last Holy Week when i got home i was surprised to see a Big Envelope my Tatay gave me. He said, "I paid 30 bucks just to get that, u have to pay me.." hehe.. And when i opened it... i saw 2 Black Shirts w/ a Lovely Pink Print of the MTV Asia Awards 2004-- w/ a heart... i was Happy. i just remembered i only joined the contest on-line. i joined the Britney Spears Toyota Vios Contest and thought maybe i could win a Vios... and look... i have 2 shirts, didn't know MTV is Real...

Now, ill try to join this contest... for MAKSIM... cross my finger... want to see his concert... like the..hmmm.. what do u call that... The...BumbleBee....*wink*wink*

w/ a celebrity

me & donita 

:)



startsruck? nah... she visited our CEO (her friend) my Acquintance (dream on, hehe..) She had her pictorials for One of the properties the Company sells, Chataue Elysee that is... she has been a friend of our boss that's why she picked Donita to be the Model of the said property. Ssshhh.. don't tell anyone 'bout this, but i was fresh from my chicken pox then... when i had this picture w/ her... hope she wont get the virus... but im pretty sure she didn't becoz im already really safe then... becoz im well, hey, im well! i know she's havin' a baby... but im really well then (kulit) anyways she was really kind to have pix with us... im also glad that one of my officemate had some extra fim for me and her... she's really kind. (am i talking jologs now?) LOL!

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huh?

before publishing this.. i was able to write my blogs for this day, and what a heck! it was not posted or published... grrrrrrrrrr.....
going back, need to track what i just had wrote... is it our server? it sucks!
anyhow....
t'was a splendid week! though i just spent the long vacation @ home, it just went fine.. didn't go for some vacation becoz my friends were preoccupied with some business, no one's available.. and some wants to just spend it @ home (but that's just fine..) had slept during the day and watched TV till the wee hours, DVD Marathon..
i missed going out during this times.. the last time i went out of town was like 2 years ago. and now, i just kinda remember the first time i was allowed to go out (u know the life in province..) my Olangapo get-away! in Crown Pick Hotel.. i had a great deal of time there.................... spending it @ home was also nice, i had a some rest, enough sleep... exactly what i needed..
but before the long vacation has ended..we went to the mall, just this sunday.. with mah cousins, nephew and sis! Sis went to dermclinic, had a facial. while waiting we went to the arcade, my nephew had a good time there.. of course i let him play.. but i pay for the tokens.. well it's nice at least, he was happy..
and now, im back to the real world.... again.... in front of my PC.. *sigh*
( I just hope this blog would be posted.. cross my fingers)

excited!

just when i thought.. i need to blog.. ideas and things to say poured this morning.. but what can i do, im in the jeepney (on my way to the office). as i passed my school in college can't help but notice an advertisement written " NURSING COURSE STARTS... blah.. blah..", so i asked myself, "is mapua still the same as it was before?" and then i saw this car came out of the campus' gate, ahhh.. students now have their cars. i still remember earlier students told us that mapua are for those kids who has the brains, the scholarship... now i wonder.. it isnt the same anymore. during my days.. we're kinda cool, though i have seen peeps with cars, been with friends who has one.. but i say they're legitimately "BRIGHT" and so how are they now, after lasalle bought it. i have never seen my campus (intramuros) for quite a while.. my cousin graduated in the same school just last january.. haven't chat with him.. ain't it funny when things become so absurd?
last friday night i went out for some movie with my girlfriends.. and yes we watched PASSION OF THE CHRIST which i by the way highly recommend.. halfway through the movie @ my back i heard sniffs.. ( i was not @ that time in the mood for crying and i don't cry @ movies @ all) my girlfriends cried.. huhuhu.. i almost wanted to laugh at them when suddenly this scene came.. When Jesus first fell down on his knees (while carrying His Cross) and Mary remembered that same thing happenned to Him while he was still young....................... and really i can't believe my tears fell down.. Big Ouch.. it really struck my heart (big time).... and i just remembered i cried twice in that movie. some people see it as a violent movie, some drama... but u see.. someone has to really get into the deep meaning of it, Jesus Payed a high price for us, what He went through is nothing we can just ignore.. its a big cut in my heart.. (sigh) He really is the Son of God! After meditating... i realized, i have to rejoice! for He has Risen! yes He died, but he rose again! and we are not slaves anymore! We are saved! we are co-heirs with Christ! a wonderful feeling inside me. Awesome God!
I've been reading The Purpose driven life for sometime now.. and with my life to have this meaning.. i really thank God for loving and creating me. though at different times i have my flaws.. speaks harshly to some people.. not to mention i backslide from him. i am so sorry.. i really want to get back.. (God help me..)

a blog

haven't read anythin' from my friends' blogs.. no news since last week. (if u can only see my face)
its april fools day... how do one make it a fools day? doing something funny.. making fun of other people? doing something stupid? do we really need to be concious of this date? i just wonder.. this morning, i heard this lady said, "its april's fools day!" (she really souns excited.. ho-hum), in my self i said, "so?"
not really in the mood to write now, i just have an urge to do this... its been a long time.
so i wrote something yesterday, bout mah cousin who will not marry his long time gf (pregnant now)... i left a hanging question.. its been a puzzle last weekend, i saw them very sweet, and i can see in my cousin's eyes that he really loves his gf, but what the reason? fussy? he told us he's not yet ready to get married (from the first time i learned he's going to marry because he got his gf pregnant, i asked, so why marry? is it really the answer to the problem?) a lot of underlying questions... he told us his side and we understood... its a lifetime commitment... but realizing not to marry the girl, does that mean he doesn't love the girl anymore? or may be there a still lots to settle.. of course in this society.. the blame would be on my cousin, people will ask, why did u do that, and not able to face the consequences? they should have been more responsible, right? my cousin has his side of the story, and im sure the girl has hers too..
inside me, i pity the girl, she's bearing a child, with no assurance of a father, will not even carry his/her father's Name. but i know my cousin is matured, i believed his reasons.. the girl should have second thought why cousin made that decision.. he has points.. he still have dreams and ambitions.. the girl made him feel, he wont be able to do that.. the girl just wants him to just follow her orders and directions...
i now realize, not to be complacent about things.. having something wonderful now, doesn't assure someone to have it for a lifetime, it maybe for now.. and who knows what the future holds? i salute my cousins courage to stand for his decision, what ever happens.. his door is still open.. the posibility to talk with his gf again.. to open the doors for each other, who knows.. i just hope the girl would be able to realize, why it did happen?
im seeing lots of old friends @ friendster, so happy to add 'em all!
my bf is in cagayan de oro now, inspecting bayantel, he'll be be back on saturday. i miss him. yesterday was their "babang luksa" its the 1st year Anniversary of their Mother's death. so what does that mean? hehehe.. could someone answer that question for me? i'm really wishing, im praying..
2 weeks ago, he celebrated his birthday, we went to tagaytay with his family, so happy.. (i still need to scan the pix so i could post in my yahoo photos). for his birthday, i gave him, THE PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE book. i hope he will always read it. its so encouraging. so uplifting. we both need to get back to CHURCH. we need to be of service to God ALWAYS. (I know we will)
its lunch time, but i still have to finish my construction estimate... but i don't have pricing for some materials.. ill see what i can get from contacts.
this is all for now.. yeah yeah, i said im not in the mood to write, but look how long i this is now... till next blog..

whatmakesonesure...

so my younger cousin finally decided not to marry his preggy gf, so what made him decide that?

im back!

i'm not around for two weeks... because i had Chicken Pox...so sad... i quarantined myself on thosedays, can u imagine that? got back in the office yesterday, but today is just the chance to write whats been happenin'... check things out..
i opened my email and guess what...right...im over quota... received a txt message this morning from a friend in the States, asking me to erase mails.... well, i'm happy at least my friend wonder... had a chance to erase some, last wednesday when i went home. but still my mail is full.
before going here to post my blogs, checked out my friends blogs first, read, whatz been happenin' with them... i have read tins blog... bout relationship..having a longterm engagement... going out with the same guy over the years... and still fight over small stuffs... with this guy u experience all the extremes of life...u can be super sad but u can also be super happy... well, i can really understand her blog, im in the same situation... but we're with the different perspective.... i may be seeing the bird's eye view of things and life of whatz going to happen... if just in case couple settle down... but my friend is somewhat seeing the rear view of everything, but inside me, i envy her (see my previous blog).. wish i would not always feel that im gettin' older and need to be in... y'know what i mean.. feels like its the only choice i have to make, and the only move i have to make so my life could have a direction... my world seems to just end with him, him, him.... when can i be like her?
moving on to a different issue... joseph got mad at me last nyt... haven't receive any text massage from him till now... he even didn't let me know that he was home, after he accompany me going home... the story... (im kinda shy to tell it, because its so shallow..) kasi whenever hinahatid nya ako pauwi.. and malapit na sa street namin, pag nag-ask n sya s driver bumababa... feeling ko bumubulong lang sya, parang waste of time kasi nde naman maririnig... tapos uulitin na naman nya kasi nga mahina... tapos ilang ulit ko nang sinasabi sa kanya na lakasan nya... he asked me, "lumampas ba tayo?" i answered. "hindi", he said, "what's the big deal? as long as hindi nman lumalampas, hayaan mo na ako, ako na bahala." with the stubborn me, i picked up an argument... over that silly thing... i also know that i already got to his nerves na din, because i'm arguing with him over this Testimonial his friend had with him, kasi it feels like she just copied my testi, and the nerve, feeling a real lady whenever shes with my guy... but honestly, this girl has been good to me, i've been with her in baguio, during their barkada outing... it's just that... well... im jealous... wag naman sana sya magsawa sa akin, sa over na pagseselos ko. sabi nga nya kagabi, ang "OA" ko daw, hehehe, nde ako nagalit when he told me that, kasi tutoo naman eh. nakukunsensya nga ko, sa mga ginagawa ko, kasi nun tym na may sakit ako, he was the one who gave me food, he would even boil egg for me, para daw lumabas na lahat ng bulu2ng ko, hehe, ang dami nga, lalo na sa face, sana lang walang scar... tapos he bought me medicines pa, as in asikaso to the max, tapos gaganituhin ko pa. nakakaasar ba talaga ako? tinanong ko pa... he will be havin' a company outing this weekend, and syempre, inggit na naman ako sa kanya, hindi ako kasama kasi company outing nga eh... but @ the back of my mind, why can't he let me join him, kasi ba gagastus lang sya pag sinama nya ako? but why dun sa iba kong friends, they can and they let their partners go with them during company outing, ayaw ba nya ako kasama? i wonder? but i have this answer, maybe, if its ok to bring me during this outing... he would tell himself, "wag na lang, hindi lang ako mag-e-enjoy pag kasama sya, kasi magseselos lang sya ng magseselos, kahit s simpleng pakikipag-usap ko sa babae, may ibig sabihin na s kanya", maybe he would say that to himself... i just had this thought, and i know its possible... but i just hope, hindi na lang pwede magsama kaya hindi nya ako masama.. kasi may budget... but i heard from him before, may mga managers na nagsasama ng family, and when i asked, "bakit sila, nagsasama, ako hindi mo sinasama?" he answered. "manager ba ako?" wala supalpal na namn ako, sad... which is true, he really has a point... kaya lang... i dunno... im so miserable.. after my depression last 2001, feeling ko, i cant get out of it, esp. my insecurities toward my relationship. i know this is a poison... kaya lang ang hirap kinakain na nya ako. i just Pray, bahala na si God.
Here naman sa work, tambak ang mga gagawin ko, lahat ng tao demanding, kaya yesterday, i wasnt able to even visit my email and my blog. early lunch daw ako, at wala akong kasama dito sa room, kaya ayun, i was able to sneak, and make this..
they told me, i lose weight, sana tutoo... when i checked the scale i lose 4kg... that's fabulous! but its not easy to get sick, im so restless when i got chicken pox and i was so sad, i had fever and i even can't take a bath...
well, im back in the circulation again, i can blog thoughts again, and i'm happy... i just hope na magbati na lang kami ni joseph before the day ends... should i text him? what should i do... my pride is eating me din eh... bahala na mamaya... (",)